Wasted

Chapter 46

*Louis' POV*

Indescribable.

I never felt it before but I can tell you, it feels indescribable.

Having the assurance the person that you care about the most, loves you just as much as you do. It's just such a relief to know that you're wanted. That the trust goes in two ways. I just wouldn't be able to lose her, to move on.

There is nothing more satisfying than getting someone's complete trust. Maddy exposed her bare self for me, she trusts me with all her body even though I don't deserve it. I feel like crap for lying to her in the beginning. I needed her from the start, I wanted her from the very beginning but I only realized in what way, way too fucking late. But I try to make up for it, I'm forcing myself to be something that I've never been before but with Madison you can't call it forcing anymore. With her it all goes with the flow. I can be myself with her and feel completely comfortable in that. She appreciates me together with all my flaws and mistakes I made in the past. She knows me, everything except of some details like the drug I deal, what role Miley still plays in my life and I didn't tell her about my brother and of course not how I thought about her. Nobody knows except of Harry and Liam and his stupid friends. Harry won't tell her, I know that and Maddy broke with Liam to be with me so he isn't telling her either. Again another sacrifice from Maddy that proves how much she actually cares about me.

We've been laying here for some time now, her curls spread around my chest, her back against my side and her pink shaded cheeks resting on my arm. I don't even need to look at her to know she has her eyes closed but I know she's awake. My eyes are closed as well, I'm focussing on the rhythm of her heartbeats.

"Stop it." I say. I keep my eyes closed but I know that hers are wide open now.

"Stop what?"

"Worrying about whatever that's going on in your mind."

"How would you know that I-"

"Don't you think I know you well enough yet to know that?"

She let's out a shaky breath. I know she's thinking about herself not being a virgin anymore and it bothers me that she may regret things.

"How are you?" I ask like I meet her in the supermarket.

"I'm fine thanks, how are you?"

"I'm fine as well, thank you."

I place a kiss on the back of her head that's still facing me. And then my phone goes off, a loud and damn annoying tune sounds through the dark room. Who the hell is even calling me this late? But the callerID that appears on the screen answers that question; Miley.

"I need to take this one, I'll be right back." I promise and press the green button. I place my phone between my shoulder and cheek while hurrying into my jeans. I quickly pull my shirt over my head and place another kiss on her cheek. She's looking at me with those big eyes of hers, the duvet pulled up to cover her chest as she sits up.

"Who's calling?" She asks, her voice sounding too breakable.

"Harry." I say in an impulse. "He- he needs me right away, I need to go. I hate to leave you now but I promise it wont be long."

"I thought he was with Ali?"

"Yeah, I don't know." I say quickly and peck her lips a last time before leaving her in my dorm. I practically run down the stairs to make sure she wont follow me and find my way to the dark and empty streets.

That's when I see her, her short blond hair and her dark red lipstick suck the attention towards her. She walks closer and so do I until we meet, standing face to face.