Wasted

Chapter 34

A/N. I warn you for this one.

I suck in these things.

*Maddy's POV*

"I'll miss him." I say for the hundreds time when Louis joins me in the car. He turns the key and brings us on the road on our way to the campus.

"You're quiet." I vocal my thoughts. Maybe it's because of last night. We didn't have sex but we did go further than kissing alone and since this morning he's acting so strange. Maybe I did something wrong. Probably I made a complete fool of myself again. But the words he whispered, the way he kissed me and even the small moans that escaped from his lips, that couldn't be possibly faked.

| FLASHBACK |

"You don't have to do this if you don't want to." Louis says, his exposed chest above me. I try not to stare but it's nearly impossible. His finger touches my cheek and runs down my skin to my lower stomach what makes me shiver. I nod.

"No nodding, talk to me." He demands.

"I-I want this." I stutter.

In the dim light his torso seem even more muscled than in daylight and his lips seem even more pink.

"You're so beautiful." He whispers. His fingers slide to my shoulders and slowly remove my bra. I've never been this exposed and close to someone before. I never showed this much of my body and it frightens me. I'm so insecure but Louis makes me forget that for a moment. The scar right under my left breast is kissed by his soft lips.

"I love you." He whispers.

"Shht." I say and bring his head to mine with both of my hands and kiss his forehead and then his lips. His tongue slides in and we kiss for what felt like and hour. I couldn't get enough of his lips. Of him.

It excites me that we aren't in his or my dorm but in someone else's bedroom. That makes this a sort of adventure and it winds me up. It makes me feel.. 'Bad'. What I didn't feel like in a long time of being an angel.

My heart starts racing when Louis fingers find the zoom of my panties while kissing. His lips get harder and the kiss rougher. His hand slowly slides in my panties and a small gasp I can't control rolls over my lips. Louis smirks and keeps on kissing me everywhere on the face. My body tenses and a small shiver rolls over my back.

"Relax." He whispers.

My mind starts racing. I starts thinking about how exposed I am and how broken my body still looks and how I've never done something like this before.

| BACK TO PRESENT |

"I don't know, just don't feel like talking." Louis wakes me from my memory of last night. And he must have noticed. "You can't stop thinking about it don't you?" He teases. I feel my cheeks heathen by his words. "Don't be ashamed darling, it was great." He speaks to the road in front of us. When I remain silent he turns his head to look at me. "You do think the same right?" He questions, his beautiful voice full of worry.

"Of course." I silently answer.

"Good." He says and puts his hand on my lap. He starts drawing circles with his thumb on my thighs like he always does while driving.

His iPhone that's placed on the dashboard starts ringing. The name 'Miley' appears on the screen. My jaw tenses and I gulp once. Louis never told me about a Miley and as far as I know no girl in our year is called like that. And the picture next to her name, I'm pretty sure I've never seen her before.

Louis groans and removes his hand from my lap to ignore her call. He puts his phone between his legs and puts his hand back on it's previous place. But he isn't drawing circles anymore.