Slow Love

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Prince-POV

I'm going to buzz right through these therapy sessions. Steve is a great therapist and has educated me on how to navigate them quickly with a positive resolution. If I had known it was going to be this easy, I would have done it years ago. Well, maybe not. I never before had a good reason to do it until now. Having Gigi in my life has made this all possible and I'm doing it for her because I love her. I don't want to screw up and lose her, I have no choice than to do it. If I pull another stunt like I did leaving her in Paris and running to Sheila, she will leave me. She forgave me once, but she'll never do it again. Thank God I did not cross the line and commit adultery or I would've lost her forever. I have to ensure that will never happen again, no matter what. I would not consciously do that, I had to be out of my mind when I bolted to NYC. It proved to me I had to resolve these issues once and for all. 

I'm over the moon with starting a family. God and science have given us the ability to have children at our stage of life. I love her so much and to have children with her is a dream come true and blessing that I thought would never be realized. Ever since she told me it was possible, I've thought about it non-stop. I am elated she wants it too and agreed to try. I want to create the family I never had with loving parents and a home filled with love, caring, kindness and understanding. Gigi will be a natural mother. She takes excellent care of me so I know she will do the same with our children. She is a perfect mother with her endless love and ability to resonate all that makes her so special. These kids are in for a real treat. We are going to need a lot of help to get them raised. I must safeguard her health to ensure she lives a long life in this endeavor we both want. I have to pray to God, asking him to bless us with a home full of children.

'Heavenly Father, You are in full control and dominion over everything great and small. Nothing is hidden from your sight and you have the ability, authority, and majestic power to do what I cannot do for myself, my wife, our future, and destiny. I pray children are part of our journey you intended and I completely entrust our lives in your hands knowing that you know what is best for us. I come to you to bless our intimacy and union to be clean and pure before your eyes. That out of our love for you and our love for each other, children will be formed. These children will bind our love for one another and will be used by you for your kingdom and purpose. Amen'

Gigi-POV

Jiggling me awake, "Baby, dinner's ready, are you?" Still wrapped up in his arms, "Yes, Sweetheart. I'm hungry. How bout you?" He nods as we scoot over to the edge to go upstairs for dinner. The chef had a fabulous dinner for us. Afterward, we went out to the balcony to finish our wine with dessert. We get situated out there, sitting side by side with his arm around me, "Sweetheart, what did Steve say about the sex-rage?" He looks at me with his coy smile, trailing kisses up my neck, "Baby, it's a normal side effect." I draw back from him kissing me, tilt my head looking at him in the eyes, "What? Explain that to me. There is nothing about you that's normal." He smirks a little, clears his throat. "Go ahead, Sweetheart, spill it to me. I want to hear all the details." 

He appears to be slightly embarrassed and you know nothing embarrasses this man. I can see something really big is brewing for that to happen. "Um, Steve told me it's part of the process, the way I react to that specific stage of emotion. Everyone responds differently, it is part of the healing progression. He knew that particular emotion would be extreme for me and it's why you are involved in it, to help me so I can release it, heal and move on to the next stage. Baby, I had no idea I was using you in that process. You know I would never knowingly treat you like that...I love you. Please don't be mad at me, I'm sorry." 

Well, that's not what I expected. He is woefully looking at me, I can tell he's scared to death I'm going to be upset with him. I lay my hand on his shoulder, tilt my head to the side, "Aww, Sweetie. I could never be mad at you for that. Steve advised me that I would be an intricate part of your therapy, but I had no idea it meant being your love doll."