Baby's Father

Forgiveness|the little things

"Girl I'm so ready for this case to be over so we can go back to vacations and fun." Amari flopped down in the seat across from me. "I thought you and Willam were on vacation the way you were bragging about your honeymoon last time?" Her face stiffened letting me know it was more to it.

"Please don't tell me you messing with Duke again." "But Camila-." I cut her off putting my hand up. "You ain't gone learn are you?" I shook my head sending off an email. "I caught him and the waitress texting again. I was all team him until I seen he had started that shit back up. He wanted to meet her at her house so two can play those games." I rolled my eyes annoyed and confused. Marriage wasn't supposed to be this and they were damaging the idea. "Why not divorce?" I asked bluntly catching a dirty look but I didn't care.

"Honestly Camila, I don't know. We are trying to hold onto something that just isn't there. We've been married for a month but together for years. We got this fucked up thing going on." She shrugged it off like no big deal. "Well I'd never cheat on your brother especially if we've said those meaningful vowels to each other. If he ever cheated on me while we were married you might as well say he'll be homeless. I know what I bring to the table and if he can't see that then I'll snatch the whole table away." Amari laughed. "I feel you, but I'm doing my dirt too so I can't do that."

"Change for the better Amari, if you want some young sweet dick divorce William. If William wants a chocolate waitress thot then he should divorce you." She nodded her head knowing it was the painful truth.

"On to a lighter subject, have you talked to Allen since the whole thing?" I rolled my eyes. "Girl my cousin lied to me, made up a whole life without me knowing. I didn't know Bobby and Keke were married. He had never came by the office and the little times he did I wasn't here. The way Allen introduced us it had to be his man." Allen had gave up on calling me while I was in New York, I guess he finally got that I won't be so forgiving.

"Bitch c'mon now, this is Allen we're talking about here. The same Allen that always wanted to make you proud and for you to have such high standards of him. I just think you need to ask him about the whole situation and get the real scoop. You accepted me and Duke's dirt why not accept his?" I shook my head, people could be so damn stupid.

"I'll talk to him on my own time when I'm ready. And I never accepted Duke I just let you fuck up your own life, my job isn't to keep you two intact." I said matter of factly. I acted like mommy 24/7 around these kids. I knew I wasn't perfect but I wasn't trying to make excuses for my problems either.

"Well Camila everybody isn't perfect and have their shit together. I'm sure you'll have your moment with my brother that'll make you feel at your lowest. And when you come to me crying I won't make you feel like shit or what you doing is wrong. You think I want this shit? Baby it's a tough world out there and it's either play the game or let it be played on you." She got up from the chair walking out my office.

I groaned knowing she was being completely honest. I was there for her but how could she possibly want me to entertain that idea. Rodger and I were new to this shit and I thanked God he didn't have me out here looking stupid. William cheated on Amari first and since then it's been a tag team game. I don't ever want to get to that point where I have to put myself out there for some revenge nobody gives a fuck about.

Allen looking up to me in a way and I basically spit in his face made me feel terrible. Kesha was yelling, I was yelling, Bobby broke his heart and the last thing he needed was my ass judging him. It's just so much fucked up shit that's going on that it's hard to comprehend their issue. I just seen the simple ways to end shit and I never considered the love part that was involved.

If Rodger cheated I'll make him pay but my dumb ass would stay. It was so stupid but fact is we all love someone so much that through tough times we still remain solid. I wasn't gone play that 'we together for the sake of our family' shit cause we all know a bitch like that. Just admit you love the man you can't bare to see what you worked so hard for vanish.