Baby's Father

Issues Worked Out

"Let me know if you okay Cassity, I've been calling and calling. You know this leaving voicemail shit is so old." I laid my phone down on the pillow rocking side to side as the tears fell.

I haven't been to school in three days simply because I couldn't see Montae after that shit. He'd been texting me back to back but I couldn't answer. That was rape and it broke my heart that it came from him, the guy I trusted the most. Camila begged me to speak to her but I knew she would go crazy if she found out. And if she knew that meant Rodger knew and I didn't want anything to get out of hand. The way he flashed seeing a simple condom, imagine rape.

Ice packs were faithfully between my legs to keep the swelling down and pain. I felt so dirty, slutty and used. All I wanted was love and if someone told me this was it I'd tell them they're lying. I slowly sat up groaning at the slightest twist and turns. Starving was an understatement and Camila yelled through the door letting me know she cooked. Whatever it was it smelt good enough for me to hop my ass up. It seemed quiet on the other end of my door so I opened it up seeing that I was in the clear.

She finished the food almost an hour ago and it still smelt so good. I opened up the pot looking at neck bones, cornbread was in the oven, greens in another pot, and candy yams in a bowl. She knew how to throw down in the kitchen, I felt so bad for avoiding them but I had some figuring out to do starting out with how Im going to stuff myself with food.

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I was in the shower letting the hot water run down everything crack soothing me. Every since shit jumped off in my office Rodger haven't been home. No call or nothing else but I still found myself trying to check up on his ass. He was so quick to run away when shit got tough and that made me believe he wasn't ready.

I was planning this wedding and planning it felt like a drag at this point but I wouldn't stop. His bag was packed and gone for two days now and I didn't know when he was coming back home to me. Cassity was still avoiding me and it made me uncomfortable to feel like I'm the only one in the house.

Ari was at my mother's house playing with Deedee's kids for the weekend. Allen and Danny decided to take them a little vacation. Amari and Duke were probably doing whatever they did on a daily basis.

I stopped the shower getting out grabbing my towel go wrap around my body. I looked out my window seeing it looked like a storm was close to coming, with this weather change you never know what Houston is gonna see.

I dropped the towel letting it pool around my feet as I looked at myself in the mirror. My body was changing fast and I was blowing up bad if you ask me. As soon as baby boy was out I was going to get me a home gym and be in it heavy. I lost it with Ari and I know I can lose it just as quick with him.

I wanted to be lazy and take the easy way out and name him a Jr. But then again I wanted him to have his own identity and a name for himself not built on his father.

I put on an over sized t-shirt since I clearly wasn't going anywhere in this weather. I turned the Tv on flipping to Love&HipHop, the shit was scripted as fuck but still entertaining.

My phone started going off grabbing my attention, I seen it was my mama facetiming me and I just knew it was Ari. I answered smiling, "Hey mommy!" "Hey baby!" I laughed waving at her and my mom.

"She misses you and wanted to talk so we called. Deedee's children are staying over here tonight so she'll have some play mates." I nodded my head. "Mommy I miss you, it's thundering here. It's a lot of noise." I laughed shaking my head at her. "I miss you too baby, I'm coming to get you in one more day. Have you been good for grandma and grandpa?"

"Give me this phone." I heard my dad in the background snatching the phone from my mom. "No she haven't, this girl ate my last Nutter Butter bar." I fell out laughing covering my mouth. "This girl is a savage!" My dad was really upset that's what had me dead.