Sanders Sides- Virgil

Disenchanted

Virgil's POV:

Roman comes back, his hair all ruffled up, and he looks like he got his anger out. He sits next to me and I raise my eyebrow. "What did you do?"

He grumbles, "I taught Logan a lesson."

"You beat him up?"

He nods. "He got some bruises...ya know...but he deserved it."

I smile and rest my head on his shoulder. "Thank you."

He smiles down at me and plays with my hair. "Anything for you, kitten."

I get up and go over to my nightstand, take out a piece of paper, and hand it to Roman. "I wrote a two part song for if I ever...commit suicide..."

Roman frowns at me. "Please, don't ever leave."

I give him a small smile. "I won't." He smiles at me and we share a sweet, loving kiss. Then I say, "Could we sing this together?"

He nods. "Of course we can!"

I point to the highlighted part. "That's you. I already know the words."

He nods. "Okay."

I get my guitar and I start to strum the chords.

Bold is Virgil
This is Roman

"I wish that my hand was a shotgun
So I could die young
But if I did, then Thomas would be left alone
And I don't want him to die and leave home
Though I'm always told that I'm not needed
And I've started to believe it
I apologize, but I couldn't resist
So I cut a vertical line down my wrist

I've been depressed for so long
That's the reason why I am gone

Virgil, why did you have to disappear?
I really want you here
Now I can't stop these tears
This loneliness is painful
Wish your death wasn't so harmful
Now everything is horrible
I miss you, I love you, I need you
I must kiss you, be with you
But now I feel blue

I wish that I didn't feel so horrid and sad
So I wouldn't feel bad
Then maybe I could not be so fucking worthless
And I really wish that I didn't feel so hopeless
But in the end, I know that I am useless, heartless
I've started to pray to die
I apologize, but I must try
So I would stay up with tears in my eyes

I've been depressed for so long
That's the reason why I am gone

Virgil, why did you have to disappear?
I really want you here
Now I can't stop these tears
This loneliness is painful
Wish your death wasn't so harmful
Now everything is horrible
I miss you, I love you, I need you
I must kiss you, be with you
But now I feel blue

I'm sorry that I had to leave
Will you come back, please?
I can't, I can't, I am gone
You've been gone for so long
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold on
I just wish that you were more strong

I've been depressed for so long
That's the reason why I am gone

Virgil, why did you have to disappear?
I really want you here
Now I can't stop these tears
This loneliness is painful
Wish your death wasn't so harmful
Now everything is horrible
I miss you, I love, I need you
I must kiss you, be with you
But now I feel blue

Virgil, why did you have to disappear?
I apologize
I really want you here
That I had to die
Now I can't stop these tears
But I couldn't lie
This loneliness is painful
I'm better off dead
Wish your death wasn't so harmful
Couldn't get out of my head
Now everything is horrible
So I ended myself with lead
I miss you, I love you, I need you
I miss you
I must kiss you, be with you
I need you
But now I feel blue
I must kiss you

Hey Virgil, I miss you, I miss you
Hey Roman, I love you, I love you
And I wish that I could kiss you
I wish that I could kiss you"

By this point, Roman and me are crying. He looks at me and cups my face in his hands. "I love you."

I smile. "I love you too."

"ROMAN!"

"Oh fuck..." Roman mutters.