Have You Seen This Girl

Chapter 41 Status: Umaasa

Chapter 41

Jillian’s POV

“Sabi ni Taylor Swift: Don’t fall in love, because everything that falls, gets broken.”

“I know, that’s why you need someone to catch you, because if not, you’ll fall hard and break into pieces.”

Sinabi ko ba talaga ‘yun?! Ghad! What’s with being metaphoric? Tss.

Soon as I’d closed the door, I rested my back at the wall. Huminga ako ng malalim at unti-unting bumalik lahat ng sinabi ko sa akin. Kasalanan ‘tong lahat ni Mitch. If it had not been with her bothering words—or should I say, Taylor’s, I wouldn’t be as baffled as this!

In the first place, I don’t have all the right to talk about love. Heck, what do I know about it? Sure, I’ve read and heard about it before, but I’ve got no experience at all. Maybe, I’m just not in the proper thinking when I said that, yes? I nodded.

After three consecutive strangled sighs, I went to the couch and slumped my back. Mag-isa na naman ako sa bahay. Alone in this lonely four-cornered place. Stuck, together with my loneliness.

Everything was shut. Silence was flirting with me pretty well when my stomach got jealous and ruined the whole thing.  

Ang O.A ng tunog. Nakakainis, parang wala ng bukas.

Holding my tummy, checking the last time I ate, and yes, I can’t blame the poor organ. Hindi pa pala ako nagla-lunch. Goodluck with that. I was too busy wallowing over my wrecthed life, I forgot to do something, eat, for that matter.

 No one can blame me. Masyado kasing overwhelming ‘yung sakit na naramdaman ko nang makita ko sina Cyrus. Na-overpower tuloy ‘yung sakit ng tiyan ko. Physical pain is bearable, emotional isn’t. That explains it, I guess.

“Kalma,” usal ko, habang hinihimas ang tiyan ko. Tumayo ako at sinunod na ang kanina pang hinihiyaw ng bituka ko, Grab a meal for Nirvana’s sake! I’m starving!

I rummaged the refrigirator and searched for something edible. Anything will do, actually. I’m really hungry, I could barely eat the fridge itself.

Shaking my head, I found nothing. Sinarado ko na ang ref at naupo sa may dining area. All I have now is an empty basket and an empty stomach. The kitchen looked so dull, the sink was barren for I think, since last night.

Averting my gaze, I looked for anything left there for a piteous dude like me. Fortunately, I found this poor bread stuck inside the thin plastic located at the top of the dish washing cabinet.

Agad ko itong kinuha at tinanggal mula sa plastic. Mukhang nakaraan na ‘yung itsura ng tinapay pero okay lang, bukas pa naman mae-expired, eh. Siguro naman hindi ako mamamatay lang dahil sa pagkain ko nito, right? Cinderella ate an apple and she got her Prince, would that roll for me, too? Connection? Nothing. Gutom lang ako.

Nag-init ako ng tubig at naghintay na kumulo ito. Kinuha ko ang kape, asukal at creamer. Konting timpla. Matapang pero medyo sweet. Something that will pain my taste bud or at least can thaw this hard as a rock bread.