Have You Seen This Girl

Chapter 46 The show must go on

Chapter 46

Jillian’s POV

After our conversation, I returned to the backstage. Good heavens, bahala na si Batman.

Nanginginig ako habang nakatayo ako dito. I felt like my knees are going to be detached on my body. My whole system’s under a terrible rousing. I feel scared and hopeless.

Kailan pa naging solo ang duet? That dork. How could he leave me hanging here? I know I did him wrong. I’ve been rude to him but he was far worse. Ganito ba siya gumanti dahil madalas ko siyang tinatarayan?

“Good afternoon, everyone. Welcome to the . . .” Blah blah.

Nagsisimula na ang program. Nagwawala na ang puso ko. Para itong lalabas mula sa aking katawan. Mas lalo akong kinakabahan. At mas lalo akong nasasaktan.

Tila ba nagsi-sink in na sa akin na iniwan niya kami at sa araw na ‘to, hindi namin siya makakasama.

Napansin ko na lumuluha na pala ako. I wiped the tears pelting down my face.

He’s not worth it. Do not ruin your make-up because of that jerk, Jillian. I nodded as I mentally convince myself.

  

“Guys, calm down. We can do this, okay?” Jasmine said. We tried to answer back with a smile.

I was watching them carefully when finally, the Emcee called the first performer. Nagpalakpakan ang audience. Pakiramdam ko babaligtad ang bituka ko. Ganito ba ang feeling? It’s weird. This isn’t my first time to sing in front of a huge crowd but I still could feel the jitteriness inside my stomach.

  

Lumapit si Mitch sa akin at hinawakan ang kamay ko. “Okay ka lang, Althea?” she asked.

“Y-yeah,” I answered, stuttering. I could hear the angelic voices of the performers from here. Somehow, I felt as though I was being solaced by them. 

“Nakakainis naman si Papa Cyrus. Alam mo ba kung nasaan siya?”

I rolled my eyes. “Kung alam ko lang, kanina ko pa sana siya pinuntahan.”

“Kaya mo ‘yan. Bahala na. Summon all the gods and goddesses you know.” She laughed.

Bahala na talaga. Kapag nagkalat ako doon, dadamputin ko na lang ang sarili ko. I’ll just pretend I’m performing for a freaking parody. 

But despite all the hatred, I know, deep inside my heart, I am worried for him.

I have too many questions.

Bakit kaya hindi siya nakarating? Did something happen to him? Paano kung may mabigat na rason kung bakit niya ‘to nagawa?

I closed my eyes and prayed for him. Lord, huwag niyo pong hayaan na may mangyaring masama sa kaniya. Hope he’s doing good.