This Gotta Be Love

Chapter 14

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"Stop- stop please. . " mahina ko itong tinulak sabay baba ng tingin. Hindi maaring nagagawa lang nito ang gusto nya kung kelan nya gusto! Kung para sa kanya tila laro lang ang halik, hindi para sa akin. I have values. I have beliefs. And if he cant respect it,then it leaves me with no choice but to make him stop.

" bakit?" Tanong nito , ngunit ang mga labi ay gumagalaw pa din at nasa gilid pa din ng labi ko!

" anong bakit?" Ganting tanong ko dito. I tried pushing his face away from me, but he remained unmoved!

" bakit kailangan mong magpangap na ayaw mo sa akin? Bakit ayaw mong sumugal?" Mas lalo akong napasinghap nang bumaba ang halik nito sa leeg ko! Damn this man for making me feel so many sensations!! Damn this man for wanting him to continue!

" matt. . Stop.. " tuluyan ko nang kinulang ang mukha nito at seryosong tinitigan.

" bakit?"

" dahil ayokong masaktan.!" Pag amin ko. I saw him closed his eyes for awhile and bursted with annoyance vissible in his voice!

" damn it. Di ka na bata para matakot masaktan. Di habang buhay andyan ang lolo at lola mo para protektahan ka. Para tulungan ka. .Sarah, please, take a risk with me "

" di mo naman ako mahal so bakit pa natin to papatagalin pa? Bakit pa natin to ipagpapatuloy pa??" I try to look straight into his eyes.. Matapang kong sinalubong ang galit nitong titig. At habang tumatagal ang pagtitinginan namin, unti unting nawawala ang galit sa mga nito. Napalitan ito ng unawa at lungkot..

Hinaplos nito ang pisngi ko bago muli itong nagsalita..

" did you ever think that Love is the only reason why a relationship succeed??have you not think of those people who were deeply inlove and yet a year or two after, they broke up?? This is reality! There's no such thing as 'happily ever after'! It's not always about love.. "

" pero yun ang paniniwala ko. Pag nagmahal ka, lahat ay kaya mong isakripisyo. Pag nagmahal ka, dapat handa ka sa panghabang buhay na commitment. Pag nagmahal ka, dapat sya lang simula una hangang sa huli. ."

" And that's not going to happen if you won't take a risk. "

" how sure are you na di mo ako sasaktan? Ayokong dumating ang panahon na kamuhian kita, or- -

" take a risk with me. Im willing to change for you. Change me if you want to. I like you. I really really do. .and who knows, i might fall in love with you. ." Seryoso nitong sabi. Ako naman ngayon ang natigilan. . Di ko inaasahan itong pag uusap namin. Di ko inaasahan ang mga salitang namutawi sa kanyan mga labi.

" and what if , what if you wont fall in love with me? Paano ako?"

" that i can not answer today. .but i know deep inside me, hurting you will be the least that i would think of doing to you. ."

Natahimik ako.

Im a woman who believes in the power of Love. I believe that Love is the cure to all bitterness. Naniniwala ako na ang panliligaw ay isang paraan upang ipahiwatig mo sa nililigawan mo ang tunay mong pakay sa kanya at yun ay ang mahalin ito hangang sa huli. .

" Matt. . Why are you courting me?¨

" have you not thought of 'courting'is just a collection of information and only showing off of the good things in you, but then when you get into a 'serious'relationship, you realize that its not the happy endings you have thought of? And then you break up?"