i love u to the moon n back

fading

I feel like you are fading,
but I don't want you leaving.
Why does it feel like it's the ending
of what used to feel like something?

You say you're okay, but I feel that you're lying.
You're way too quiet to not be lonely.
I wanna stay cool even though it's fading.
To think with you I felt lucky...

Don't wanna come off as a tormented homo,
but all of this silence screams so loud you can't hear me trying to hold on.
Whether it'll be peace or get us into trouble,
I don't want you to end up being gone.

We were friends and talked everyday.
We're still friends and that's that.
But I know someday you won't be able to stay,
and everything that we had will be gone, including our cats.

Why do you act like yourself
while at the same time not at all?
You change your mind from time to time,
as if you don't even know what's going on.

I don't want this to fade.
Want to keep all the pieces together.
Don't care if we have to trade,
as long as we stick together
like you said we would.

You once told me that you'd leave soon,
and I'm not looking forward to that,
but right now, somehow,
it's like you're fading already.