i love u to the moon n back

dreamin'

She says it's unhealthy to bottle it up.
I swear that I'll be okay.
They say that it's okay to not be okay,
but I swear that I'll be just fine.
But then they ask how my day has been,
and I'll shrug and say it was pretty good
even if this past year I have been drifting
into emptiness.

I'll just keep drifting off into my sleep,
and I'll see such wonderful things
that turn into nightmares.
I'll keep on sleeping and you will
appear as if you are my hero
to save me from my numbness
and pull me back into the light.

But it's all just a dream,
and I wish you were still here like before.
Until I am finally okay,
I'll just keep on dreamin'
until you fade away.

I can see that we're both fine
without each other in our lives,
but I know that I would be happier
if only you were still here instead of just me.
I swear that I'll be alright,
but there's always something
to break that promise.
She says to take deep breaths,
but I don't know how much longer
I can keep breathing without drowning.
Instead I'll just keep dreaming.

Fly me away from reality
and show me what I have been missing.
Even if I see all my worst nightmares,
I bet you can help me overcome them.
Lately I have been noticing
that I never see you around here anymore.
Maybe when I kept on dreamin',
you fading away was sort of worth it.

I miss you
and your smile
and the way you said my name.
I miss the way you came behind me
and surprised me with your existence.
There's no going back for me, though.

I wish that when you saw me again,
it would be easier to spill out my demons.
I'll say what I have been thinking for months.
I'll break down and cry,
but only then
will I truly be okay.

There are only paths ahead.
No going back for any of us.
If only I could always
keep dreamin',
and somehow you'll never fade away.