i love u to the moon n back

do i care?

If you saw cut marks all over me,
you probably wouldn't even notice.
If I walked and never spoke again,
y'all still would never ask why I'm so shy.
If I ever disappeared
without any explanation,
you might be wondering what happened,
but then you'll move on like I should.

Would you care
if I ever closed my eyes
and willed myself to never open them again?
Would you all care
if you ever found out that I was gone
because the world was too much to bear?
Would even those I haven't spoken to
care that I never said a word?
Would you care
if today I was all happy with you,
and then I'm gone with a fake smile?

Do I care
if you did or didn't care?
Maybe sometimes it looks like I don't,
but I do.
I know it's silly
to care about what others think of me,
but I do,
even if I put up an attitude,
I'll still care about you even after I'm gone....

Do I care?
Yes, I do.
And would you care
if I ended up not wanting to get away
and wanting to stay with you all
because I have it in me
to keep going and going
until only God ends me?
I hope you do
even when I stay.