i love u to the moon n back

interlude: disappear

When people start to disappear,
even if they keep coming back,
that's when you miss them the most.

And it always gets colder
when they disappear.

Thought I finally got you out of my mind.
Would've thought after the talk we had,
everything would be fine.
But somehow you seem to be able to find
your way into my sleep.
Shouldn't have thought you were forgotten.

The sad part is I don't need you back...
not as much as I used to, anyway.
Yet it makes me sad to know you're gone,
but it's worse to actually watch you
disappear.

It's been a while since I've had dreams
where you walk in.
Sometimes it's a big deal,
and sometimes it's like nothing ever changed.
But your eyes made the first kill,
and now nothing will ever be the same.
Everything used to be so shrill,
but now I've been given the blame.

Each and everyday,
you fade away.
Used to be so clear in my head and my heart,
now I don't even remember exactly
how you sounded
and how you looked
because now all you ever do is
disappear.

Remember that phone call on my birthday?
Maybe it wasn't significant to you,
but that was the best birthday gift I ever got.
To hear you again-
so high-pitched and normal-
yet still each and everyday you
disappear.

Woke up from a new dream
where you came back to class again.
Everything was fine
until you became gone in an instant...

just like how you disappeared that day.