i love u to the moon n back

keep calm and carry on

I was just reflecting on old times
back when you weren't one of the first things on my mind.
My face buried in a pillow
as my dreams are filled with sorrow.
Wondering early at 4am
how we'd be if things had stayed the same.

You painted me in gold,
yet I'm still turning blue.
We shiver under the cold,
and I hope that we're still cool.

As long as you're doing okay.
Maybe if I tried, then I could too.
Should I just send a greeting in your name?
But if it doesn't ever come across,
I'll just keep calm and carry on.

All of a sudden, you said,
"stick together!"
and I wished these words still rang true.
Remember when you had to fight
for a seat next to me?

I spin around dancing my own blues away.
I bury myself under my blankets
every time memories come rushing back.

I know you're doing just fine,
and I somehow am too.
I want to try and greet you again,
but it'll only crash and burn.
Even if we're in the same room,
we're in two different worlds.
Unless they collide again,
we'll just keep calm and carry on.

Why does change even exist?
Are those two pictures you let me keep
worthless to you since that year?
I still look at them
and remember the time and place they were taken.

I still reminisce the best of those times.
Still remember all of those precious metals.
I dive deep into mazes every now and then.
Not much left to do
except to carry on.