i love u to the moon n back

why must i always be so cold?

Why
can't I stop
being reckless
towards myself?
Too broken to explain
why I have been this way.

Why must I always be so cold?
This winter ain't gonna warm itself up.
No snow, but the rain is freezing me to death.
I'm stone cold, and I wonder why.

Why must I always hang on to those
who have already moved on
and are doing just fine without me?
Through this fog, there's so much to explore,
but all I see is you.

Goosebumps, shivering, I'm getting chills
from the space between us.
Why can't I be brave enough
to fill the freezing void?
Too broken... too frozen
to move an inch
so come and help me
from my frosty misery
and take me back home.

Why can't I be my old self
when everything was much brighter?
Used to be less sensitive
towards broken hearts and friendships.
What happened to him?

He became much more self-aware
towards the people and the world around him.
He appreciated and cared more
even if it hurt him in the long run.
Crazy enough, there's a part of him
that still hasn't changed,
and it's the fact that he doesn't know why

everything changes.
Just like the weather and time,
these precious metals
will rust and break,
and that's okay.
Even if he asks why,
you just have to tell him

it's just change,

and everything will be
okay.