i love u to the moon n back

dilemma 🅴

If only you heard my thoughts
and how I felt everyday.
Sleeping through the night
is getting easier, though.
Maybe all of this fading is okay-
it might be the best,
but my dilemma is that
I'd rather it be how it used to be.

It's Friday evening,
and I'm trying to watch TV,
but you're around.
You kept spamming my phone
with some random ass shit
that makes me crack up
still to this day.

You were jumping off couches
as if they were rooftops.
Your self-control made me lose myself.
If only you know about my tough, old
dilemma.

We're still going on with our good lives.
Even though both of ours could be better,
I know that we're doing just fine,
but maybe it could be great.
You once said to stick together.
What happened to your gorilla glue?
Conflicted and troubled-that's who I am,
and maybe you would know that if you had stuck around a bit longer.
Maybe I wouldn't have this big of a dilemma.

Memes, pets... you got it all.
You were there when I didn't need it,
and now that I do, you aren't anymore.
Looks like I always take these kinds of things for granted.
The stupidest thing is
I got a way to contact you,
but I'm too scared of disappointment,
'cause you might be wondering why-
it's been so long since we have spoken-
why am I only talking to you right now?

Why can't I just say hi?

This is my dilemma-
whether I should live and move on
or just send a quick text and see what happens.
Maybe space is for the best,
but maybe it could be better, you know?