i love u to the moon n back

zidane 🅴

Washed up by the shore in the beach.
Further than Galveston could be.
Bringing the blues out of me.
My consequence was me drowning in your oceans.

Painting on top of the canvas
where many promises were broken.
Cracked marks all over my body of work
that's still taking too long to heal.

You were my best friend since they left.
You've seen my suffer,
broken into pieces
of our broken promises.
Too late to take them back-
to take back all the trust we gave to each other.

Floating in the clouds
as if there's nothing in this universe
to worry about but you
and all the people that helped glue my pieces back.
Some days, I wish there was
less time spent just wondering
in these halls, so meaningless
to where my heart and soul wants to go.

Sorry that I had missed you.
Sorry that I was too needy
and put you through all of this guilt
instead of ghosting you like I have now.
If only I wasn't so greedy
and looked at it from your point of view,
then maybe the blame would've been put on myself
before it was too late.

I'm the phoenix
who's about to burn out,
and you can't stop it,
but you could save me
from the cards that I've been dealt with.
They ain't just any cards-
they're black and blue,
not white and red-
my colors have changed for the better.

Remember that one promise-
a promise so sacred it could affect my life?
You had promised to stop me from
being a mean bitch and hurting others,
and to stop me from
ever
hurt
or kill
myself....

Let's promise to have no promises
except to never forget each other's existence.
Please remember...
don't be like the one I've been mourning to.
Letting my trust into your hands
felt so much easier way back then,
yet somehow it's still easier
than to fall and fall and fall and fall

and keep falling...
drowning...
breathing...
ghosting....

There's nothing left to do
except to say sorry
for who I was back then.
I'm glad that everything's fine for now.
I hope the next time you ask me
"How's life?",
I'll be doing better than I ever was...
better than how I am right now.

We've been through hell and back,
and I'd rather travel the moon and back
this time.