i love u to the moon n back

mentality

Close your eyes.
Try to catch a breath
and hold your horses
'cause you don't know what will hit you.
This ain't the right mentality.
Take a chill pill and see
how much has changed
since you've been stuck in
this unhealthy mentality.
What has happened to you?
Stop trying to find your old self.
He's not going to come back
no matter how much you want him to.

Loving ain't easy,
but at least those times were easier.
What if all those times had never ended?
Imagine if I was never prone to heartbreak.
Don't you remember
when there were no arguments between us-
such a simpler time before my heart went black.

I miss those times
when the only things that could ruin me
were sticks and stones-
not words that can cut through skin.
Been missing the times
when friendships didn't mean
so much to me
as much as they do now.
As much as I'm grateful
for having friends to cherish,
sometimes I miss those times
when I took them for granted...

...at least the guilt never wore me down back then.

Your mentality isn't in the right place.
Just keep breathing
until you can feel yourself
up in the clouds
as if you're flying in heaven.
Nothing can hurt you up there, can it?
No one can tear you apart.
No soul could break your heart to millions of pieces.
All you can do is be you,
secluded among only those you love.

That's the right mentality you should have
in order to soar-not sink.

"How come I can't pick up my own pieces
and soar into this mentality myself?"
you ask.

I haven't reached up there yet.
I've been torn apart so many times-
not only because of others...
mainly because of myself, honestly.

Yet each time,
even though I feel like
there's no way out
but to sink
deep into the fiery fires of nonexistent happiness,
I get back up
with the just-right mentality.

They've had many chances
of ruining it all for me-
so much that I'd die...
not up there,
but down there...

...but they haven't yet.