i love u to the moon n back

cried back to sleep

Been a while since I cried.
Hard to due it on cue
or when I'm broken inside.

Dreams come and go,
but the better or worse they are,
the easier it is to remember them.

They can linger anytime you fall too deep.
You'll see things that'll wake you up.

I opened my eyes to a Sunday morning once.
It was the beginning of 2018.
First time missing someone hit this hard.
Changed my life, you know?

All of a sudden my eyes started to sweat.
Maybe it was the morning light at my windows.
Maybe they really were tears
because I wished I could turn back time-
I still do, sometimes...

maybe all the time.

After that, I somehow cried back to sleep.
I don't think I've cried like that ever since,
because ever since then,
any sadness that I dealt with after
only drained me
before I could shed a single tear.

When I become truly happy,
maybe I can finally cry.