New York Royalty ~Shawn Peter Raul Mendes~

35 -"I needed. . .my mom."

*warning*
The subject that is spoken in this chapter is sensitive. If you would like to skip this, I completely understand.
•Ashley's POV•
I feel my eyes start to water but hold them in.

"Ashley. . ." My dad starts, his eyes filled with anger and sadness, but I stop him.

"No one speak until I finish." I say.

He nods.

"It was a month after I had went back with her. She had went back to popping pills and she started a new drug. Cocaine. I was walking home from school and when I got there, I saw a strange man in the living room. I asked her all types of questions but she told me to go to my room and do my homework. I go to my room and see this strange man follow me. I sit on my bed and he sits next to me, putting his hand on my thigh. Caroline went up to my door, asking for money. She was so high that she had forgot that she paid him for her drugs. I didn't really know what was going on in her head. The man thought she wanted money for me and took out around 200 bucks. He gives it to her and she took it and left to her room." I pause.

I feel both of them squeezing my hand. I look up at my dad and see anger. I look over at Caroline and see tears falling. I prepare myself for what I'm about to say next.

"He closes the door and comes towards me. He tells me to stay calm and not to panic. He starts to. . ." I can't get myself to continue but I push myself to. "He starts to undress himself. I didn't want to so he ripped my shirt and my pants. I was left in my underwear. He started kissing my neck and then all over my body. I wanted to scream. I wanted him to get off me. I needed. . .my mom."

I pause and look at my mom who was fully crying now.

"I felt paralyzed. I felt like I couldn't move or say anything. Then, he told me that it was going to hurt and to not make any noise. I didn't know what he was going to do until. . .he did it." I stop.

My tears fall as I have flashbacks of that day.

"It hurt me so much. I was in so much pain but, like I said, I felt paralyzed. When he finished, he put his clothes back on and left. I never left my spot. I stayed there, trying to cry myself to sleep but. . .I couldn't. The next day, Caroline came to my room and saw blood on my sheets. She asked where it came from but I was so sleepless and so heartbroken that I didn't answer her. I mean, how could an 8 year old girl recover from that? Instead, I got up, went to take a shower, got dressed, ate breakfast and left for school." I finish.

The room stays quiet. All you could hear was my mom's muffled cries. I look up at my dad and he's staring at me with sadness. I look over at Dylan to see him angry. I look at Shawn and I rub the back of his hand with my thumb. As soon as I do that, he lets go of my hand and walks to the kitchen.

"I'll go check on him." Dylan says.

Then, he went to the kitchen. I look over at Caroline and my dad.

"I'm so sorry, Ashley. If I would've known before, I would've given up the drugs an-"

"You were supposed to give up the drugs when I took her away!" My dad yells while hitting his chair.

Me and Caroline flinch.

"The deal was that you give up the drugs and you get Ashley back. How could you do this to her?" He yells.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I gave up but I had the strongest urge to go back to drugs. That horrible man was the one who got me back on them." She says.

"You mean the horrible man who ended up raping my innocent 8 year old daughter!" He yells.

"Dad! That's enough!" I yell.

He stays quiet but anger was still in his eyes.

"How did you find out?" I ask.

"After I got out of rehab, I met up with him again. He told me that he was also off the drugs. We started dating and everything was going great. Until one day, we got in an argument and he said that my daughter was a better fuck than I was. I asked him what he meant and he told me about that day. Immediately after that, I called the cops and told them what he did. They told me they needed proof and that's when I got a call from someone that you were taken and that I needed to come down here right away. So, here I am." She says.

"You dated him!" My dad yells.

They start to argue with each other but I cut them out and start thinking.

She needs proof that he did the crime. You go with her to the cops and tell your story, he'll be put away. But what if it doesn't go your way? What if they end up going his way?

"I-I need some air." Is all say before standing up and running outside.

I go through the kitchen and into the back yard. I fall to the grass and look up at the sky. I feel my world spinning so fast and I don't know how to stop it.

How could this all happen to me? I can't do this. I can't go through that pain again. I can't even look at him. I haven't seen him in 9 years. I told myself that I never wanted to see him again. How-how could this happen?

I sit up and turn away from the house looking out to the distance. I feel a hand land on my shoulder. I turn to see Shawn looking down at me. I immediately stand up and jump into his arms, wrapping my legs around his waist. He wraps his arms around me and holds me as I cry into his shoulder.

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A/N

Sorry to those who read it.

But everything from now on should look up for Ashley.

I promise.

xx.