Me
who is this?
xxx-xxx-xxxx is typing...
Yoongi scrolled up and read through the messages, then choked when he got to the first few ones. How...
Of course. He'd been stupid in giving Dawon his number. He opened her contact.
Me
Dawon
did u give hobi my number
Message deleted.
did u give hoseok my number
Dawon
maybe
yoongi
i rlly need u to talk to him
im going to university
i cant always be there for him like i want to
Me
no
u love him, i see that
so stop trying to get him near me
Dawon
plz yoongi
he's breaking
ever since the headaches started
he doesn't laugh or smile anymore, unless he's faking it
Yoongi's heart clenched. Hoseok not smiling and laughing?
Me
exactly
since the day he saw me
so it's my fault
Dawon
he begged for u, yoongi
he was screaming and sobbing but through it all, he knew he needed u
Me
no, he did not need me
do u realize how painful that was
i have headaches that are prob about half as hard as his
and it's unbearable for me
i'm not going to tolerate this hell spreading to him
Dawon
headaches aren't contagious u idiot
u freaking risked ur life for him!
Dawon is typing...
Me
stop
plz
Dawon, stop typing
Yoongi exhaled sharply and opened Hoseok's contact again. He didn't put in a name, becaus he didn't need to. He didn't plan on using it.
Yoongi smiled at the profile picture, a cute picture of Hoseok hugging Dawon at a beach. Then he muted notifications from that number.
Dawon
plz
yoongi im begging u
plz fix him, i need u to do that
and he needs it
and i know u need it
Yoongi stared at the phone, then put it down, sighing.
What if she's right...
What if it's really not my fault?
Then it would be my fault for not being there for Hoseok through his pain...
It's okay to daydream just this one time, right? A human needs to hope sometimes. Hope.
Did he really beg for me? Really?
What if I got back what I had, and I helped him remember, like he asked me? Would that be selfish?
But what if I hurt him again?
Yoongi swore.
Hoping was painful sometimes.
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SOPE | Memory
Fanfiction"I'd give anything to remember." "I'd give everything to forget." But memories are persistent. Yoongi wants to forget his painful past, but when the love of his life comes back, he's thrown into a conundrum; should he protect Hoseok from pain, or...
