I feel so drained and i have another three hours to go until i can just go home and cry and sleep again. I have a two hour break and I'm trying so hard not to breakdown. The busy stuff is helping a lot though. It's only when it's not so busy that my mind wanders and the thoughts come back. I should've stayed away. I knew it was going to happen again. I'm stupid I know. I'll stay away this time. No matter how hard it is, it's better this way. I feel so drained physically and emotionally. I just want to sleep for a few years.