Its weird. After all these years. I thought i wouldnt be able to forget you and yet, the only time i remember you is when you show up in my feed. I love that. I was dumb. I was careless. I paid the price for it, you have no idea. I worked hard. I finally have someone, something real, to call home. I'm sorry it wasn't you. I'm glad it wasn't you. There was no way we were ever going to make it. If I had stayed even a month more I'd be dead. You didn't make me happy. I was lonely. What I have now? I've fucked it up a few times. But it's been nothing but real from me for months. I tell her everything. She's my best friend. She's everything to me. I'm so happy I met her. We're working through things, something you and I would never have done. She's the love of my life, she really is. Even if i die in a month. Even jf she dies in a month. She's it for me. After her there is nothing for me. I love her.
