The weight lifted off my shoulders just a tiny bit. Theres still a lot there. Im scared of you. Im scared of how quickly you could pull me back in, but you didnt try like last time. So thats good. I don't have to worry about you pulling me back in. It's relieving. Kind of. Im still scared. Im still scared of her too. So i guess that doesnt go away. You were wrong. I only wanted you. Not anyone else.
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Anyways.
I'm happy. I get to see a lot of my family in june. I invited people to my grad party. It'll be lit (5 of my homies r going its cool)
June 6 i graduate.
June 7 i turn 18 (and go to the casinooooo)
June 8 is my grad party
Then i move out july. The first week of july ill move out to colorado.
2nd week of july ill start my job.
I register for classes soon lol
The day after easter i can register for classes
Im excited
Its all coming together.
Maybe when i move ill finally be ok.
And then in september ill try to get a different job (amazon)
And then ill have health insurance n other benefits (better pay too)
Which means I'll be able to start therapy again and get on T this year hopefully.
Itll all be lit.
Ill be so busy and maybe itll be easier to get over you.
Im excited for my new life
