I wish i'd just die. Things would be so much easier. I wouldn't have to make this choice. This is the hardest choice ive ever made. Im so. I wish we never met. You're my worst nightmare. I've never been in love with someone like this. And you've ruined me. How am i supposed to forget you? I can't even let go of you. I wish we never met. Sure, if we hadnt had met i wouldn't have stopped drinking. Or taking pills. In fact, I'd probably be dead. I wish i was dead. I wish i was dead. I should've died two years ago. I wasn't supposed to be here. Everything. Hurts. I knew this was going to happen. Yet i knowingly jumped in front of the truck. Why is it always him? Why not somebody i don't fuckkng hate. Granted, id hate anyone who laid a hand on you. But i guess you're just like them. Everyone in that shitty town. After everything you've done, i'm still around. But not anymore. You've ruined me lmao. Fuck you ruined me. Good job. I know i deserve it. Everyone ive fucked over. Including you. I so- deserve it. I hate myself even more with every passing moment. I want to die. I want to stop crying. I want to stop feeling. I'll just. Turn it off.
