Because she's taken those pills over a course of a year to try to take her life. And honestly a lot of it was because of me. Maybe if i hadnt fucked up so bad that she tried to kill herself a few times, her stomach wouldnt be tearing apart. Maybe she'd be okay. Maybe if we didn't have those stupid fucking fights. I shouldve just shut up and told her i love her. I fucked up so many times. I just should've told her i love her.