Idk nothing is worth it anymore. I hate being alive. I actually hate it. I hate being trans. Its all getting to be too much. If i move out of state i won't have insurance so i won't be able to start t and i'm just so fucking dysphoric and i hate it. I don't look forward to anything anymore i just come home and try to sleep as soon as possible. I hate being this way. I hate it so much. Why did i have to be born this way. I hate it. I just. Want to die. Please? It would be so much better if i wasn't fucking born and i have no one to even talk to about this shit ive been alone for months. Its all just empty. Im drowning. I can't get the breath of air. Im seriously considering just letting go.
