I dont even know why I'm so obsessed over this. I have other things to think about. Good things. But yet this plays in my mind over and over again and it makes me feel like shit all the time. It's driven me to bruised knuckles and almost drowning my sorrows. I want to. But i cant. I wont. Ive been sober for about 6 months now. Thats the longest in four years. I dont know why you had to become a problem. It sucks. I cant change it. Eitherway i lose someone. But I'm not going to lose her. I can't.
