You ever just go and ruin something for no reason. Because you cant feel. It sucks. Its better this way. Im just tired. So fucking tired. Its easier this way. I dont need to feel. I dont need it. I dont need you. I dont fucking need you. You make me feel bad but still give me butterflies. Ive never hated and loved someone before. Let alone this much. Sometimes i wish id finally drive off the side of the road and just die. Im so tired of everything. Breathing. Binding. Eating. Sleeping. Everything. I'm tired of not feeling like myself. I wish I'd just die.
