how do i know if i love you?

9장

"ugh, don't move." I mutter fluttering my eyes open.

"shut up." I mutter at the clock ticking every second, slow and long. My head throbs with pain. I grab the pillow tighter.

"Ugh.." My pillow groans moving slightly.

I close my eyes and attempt to continue my sleep.

"Chao-Xing! I missed you so much! Smile please for me." He begs looking into my eyes.

"I don't understand, I don't know who you are." I mutter looking at the male before, I have no idea who this beautiful male is infront of me. Stop. I feel as if I know this man. "My name's Kim Chaerin, who is this Chao-Xing?"

"Chao-Xing, I'm serious! It's me your twin brother!" he pleads with a sad look in his eyes.

"You don't look a thing like me." I spit. "Who are you anyway? A homeless man?"

"No Chae, It's me Chao-Xiang. We are the Chao twins remember? And no I'm a famous actor." 'Chao-Xiang' states.

"You're not my twin brother, I'm not a twin." I state.

"Chaerin? Oh who are you?" Yoongi. Yoongi states looking over at the male before me.

"I'm Chao-Xiang, Chao-Xing's twin brother!" He states angerly.

"SWhat are you saying about my Girlfriend??" Yoongi says. Wait what? OMG Chae what else can you imagine? I look at Yoongi and smile.

"Yoongi, It's ok." I smile "I'm sure he's not a bad person."

"If you say so, if you need me I'll be in the lounge room with the others." Yoongi says smiling at me, I smile back.

"Haha Chae, You really are an idiot aren't you?" Chao-Xiang states as Yoongi disappears. "First you forget about you twin brother? I'm not happy."

He pulls my hair, it feels so real. Am I dreaming or is this real. His face twists and turns, father.

"You forgot about your family. Do you really think you can escape this?" He spits pulling my hair hard. Don't scream.

"No father stop!" I yelp.

"You mother left for a reason!" He yells punching me in the chest. "You idiot! I'm coming to get you and bring you home! I might kill while at it."

"No." I mutter.

"No? You don't want to me to kill you?" He questions pulling out a knife from no where. "It will be so fun!"

"No! Arghh!" He stabs the knife into my chest and twists it clockwise pushing me back into a fire.

Fire licks at my skin leaving a perfect burn. It feels real, it shouldn't this is just a dream. Wait how do I know this a dream? Why does it feel so real? I know it's a dream.

"Chaerin!" a voice yells out, smoke blurs my vision but I know it's Suga. I don't know how.

He comes into view before me.

"Chaerin wake up!" He begs. Wake up?  "Chaerin you're having a nightmare! Wake up!"

"Chaerin wake up." I cough as soon as my eyes open. I forgot about my own brother. "It's ok you had a nightmare."

"I-i know. I-i knew it was a dream the whole time... I just couldn't wake up." I mutter realise we were on his bed. "What did we do last night?"

"Nothing you just slept in the same bed as me." He says. Oh good.

I forgot about my own brother.. I'm so stupid. My eyes blur I can't see anything. He looks at me unsure how to react, I feel so weak.

"Heh, I guess I am stupid." I laugh slightly. "I guess Papa was always right, I'm just a stupid, unnessary, unwanted being."

"No Chae," He starts unsure of what to say. "You not unnessary, you're here for a reason, I'm sure of it. Everyone is."

"No, I'm not! I forgot about my twin these last few days, my Papa.." I mumble.

"Yes you are, we need you! Midnight needs you, I need you! We all need you!" Yoongi says hugging me.

"No, no I'm not.. You don't need me. You will be fine." I mumble.

"Yes we do trust me," He says. "We trust each other remember?"

I nod. Some how his words just seemed to calm me down, he knows just the words to say.

"Hyung!" I hear Hoseok yell as he opens the door. I quickly hide myself behind Yoongi. "Have you seen Cinnamon? The others were looking for her, they have breakfast ready."

"No sorry but I'll be out soon." Yoongi says.

"Wait, Hyung are those a pair of hands on your arms?" I quickly put them down.

"What no?" Yoongi says.

"Yeah right, Cinnamon come out." He says. How does he know it's me? I shake my head. When he sees I'm not coming out he walks over. "Cinnamon it's just me." he says but I hide myself further behind Yoongi.

"Chaerin has the mental age of 3, noted." Yoongi laughs turning around. "Chae, it's just Hoseok." he laughs. I shake my head.

"Cinnamon, you look like a 5 year old!" Hoseok laughs.

"It's not my fault that I have such an unmature face!" I blurt.

"and she speaks!" Yoongi laughs.

"Aye, hyung you laughing!" Hoseok smiles doing a little dance.

"You are so funny." I laugh stretching out my arms. I jump out of the bed and I grab my phone.

I do a little dance and make a cute face. They laugh at my face. My head still throbs, I think I drank too much. "Ugh, I drank too much!" I groan grabbing my jacket from the seat in the side of the room.

"You shouldn't have drunken that whole bottle of Soju! Did you even realise how strong soju is?" Yoongi says and I roll my eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me."

"Seriously? I've had more than one bottle of soju before, that was after a concert and we had a concert the next day? I can handle a lot." I say. I drink, a lot. Actually I drink till I drop.

"So? You know how dangerous that is?"

"I hate you."

Yay! Two weeks for this??? I'm so sorry I can't write well T°T. Help meeeee. I'm sorryyyy. I'll edit this weekend with the next update! thankuu!

-Harukaa!