how do i know if i love you?

19장

I am back at this place again. I turn to see my mother instead of my dad. I run to greet her but as I reach her, her body shifts from her sweet face to a monster's face. I stumble back and fall through the floor, I fall through the ceiling into the hallway again and again. Her face becoming more monsterious each time I fall pass her.

Finally, a figure catches me by my hair, the monster shifting into my dad. The monster constantly switches from my dad back to the monster.

My dad throws my body at the wall. "You useless piece of trash." he says pointing a gun at my head. He pulls the trigger and I hear a loud ban, I know I've been shot as blood splatters the wall. I hear the gun drop and I turn to see my lifeless mother dead on the floor next to a women I've never seen before. I scream in terror as my mother turns to bones.

I jump out of my bed, tears running down my eyes. I had a actual nightmare, not a flashback dream. I sit up out of my bed, I check the time, 10:01 pm. It's not even midnight.

Suddenly the darkness seems as if it will swallow me whole. Just as I thought it would when I was a child.

I quickly hop out of my bed and rush to the kitchen as if it is my source of protection. I can hear my heart beat in my ears, I'm scared.

I look in the fridge, the alcoholic drinks no longer in there. I turn on the kitchen light and sit in the corner between the cupboards.

"No ones here, you're okay. You have nothing to fear." I repeat trying to tell myself I'll be fine. "No ones here, you're okay. You have nothing to-"

I hear footsteps coming closer to the kitchen. The lights surrounding the kitchen get turned on.

I watch as the person comes into the kitchen. "Yoongi-" I mutter. The person jumps and then turns to face me.

"Chae? What are you doing?" He says coming towards me. "Did you have a bad dream?"

"I can't sleep. They're coming. I don't know what to do." I mutter. He sits down next to me. I rest my head on his shoulder.

"It's going to be ok, no one is coming for you." He says resting his head on my head. "You just had a bad dream, dreams aren't real life."

"Are you sure?" I ask looking out in the kitchen. There's a flash of light followed by a loud bang. I jump at the sound.

"It's storming." He says helping me to stand up. I look out the window, why does it have to be storming now?

I move away from him and open the fridge door again, I move everything out of the way trying to find the alcohol in the fridge. The sound of thunder causes me to jump and stumble to the ground.

"Chae, are you ok?" Yoongi says coming towards me. I am now visibly shaking. I shake my head, I hate storms.

"I-I i'm scared." I say, standing up. "storm." I point up at the roof and Yoongi engulf me in a comforting hug.

He holds onto me. He continues to hold on to me as we walk out of the kitchen. "I have my own room." He says as we travel towards his room.

"Ok." I mutter. Everytime the thunder sounds I jump. Yoongi holds me tighter towards him, comforting me.

He lifts me up and puts me on his bed. He gets into the bed beside me. I wrap my arms around his body.