how do i know if i love you?

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The sun shines brightly into the room. I open my eyes slowly and sit up. Yoongi sits on the edge of the bed looking out the window. I move over towards him and wrap my arms around him. "Did you have a good rest?" I ask and he rests his head on my shoulder.

"Are you alright? Taehyung brought you here when you had fallen asleep." Yoongi starts. "He said you were yelling at Namjoon."

"I'm fine. Don't worry about it." I say stroking his hair. I rest my head on his head.

"I know it isn't fine." Yoongi says pulling away from me, he wraps his arms around me and pulls me close to him. "Look, I know that I'm not a therapist. I don't really know what to do when people tell me their problems."

"I'm fine though. I'm sorry if I'm a burden to you. It's ok if you don't want to listen to what I have to say or know what to do about it." I say looking up at him, I place a hand on his face. "You're my boyfriend, not my therapist."

He doesn't say anything. He rests his head on my shoulder. "You aren't a burden to me. I love you too much for you to be a burden. Please Chaerin, if something's hurting you please tell me and we'll figure something out, ok?" He says as I stroke his hair.

"How much did Taehyung tell you?" I ask looking out the window, my eyes begin to sting with tears. I move him off me and hug him tightly, tears escaping down my face.

"He told me everything he heard." He says before kissing my forehead. We stay there for awhile in each others embrace.

I eventually get ready and we head out for breakfast. I hold Yoongi's hand tightly as we get to the table, Jin and Jisu had made breakfast this morning.

We quickly eat and then head to practise, we don't practise for that long because we have a concert tonight.

Around twelve Jisu and I decided to go to the gym. I would go by myself but I'm really not supposed to be by myself. It's my last day of my period, it's only been about four days since I got my period, the bleeding has already stopped but I count today as a day because the cramps that had come on the first two days are now back and they are very painful.

I had been on the pill for a few years now because of the extreme pain. The doctors said I should get my pills back in two days and I'll have to wait 7 days for it to be effective.

I do a hard work out to try and balance the pain of the cramps with the pain of the workout. "Chaerin." Jisu starts getting me to stop what I am doing. I look up at her. "I think you should really stop now. You'll end up killing yourself." I look up at her and grip my pants. "What I mean is that you'll cause yourself a lot of pain and you'll end up fainting I shouldn't of said that sorry." Jisu quickly exclaims slightly embarrassed that she said such a thing.

"No, you're right. It's just ughh." I say whimpering as the pain of the cramps come again. I grab my pants tightly and take deep breaths in and out.

"Should I get you some medication?" Jisu asks and I shake my head. She helps me to my feet and we go up to eat lunch. As we get to the apartment I sit down on the couch next to Yoongi and rest my head on his shoulder.

He's playing a game on his phone, something tiles? It's like a piano on his phone. I watch him play his game. Another cramp hits me, it feels like I've been stabbed in my lower abdomin a million times. I whimper softly before realising I should of tried to hide the pain.

Yoongi turns to me and I look away. "Chaerin are you ok?" Yoongi asks and I nod even though I'm in so much pain. I've stopped bleeding already so I honestly don't know why I'm still cramping.

"I'm fine, just girl things." I say resting on him. "Do you want to hear about it?" I tease and he shakes his head. "C'mon? Why not?" I ask leaning over him. "I'd tell you all about it if you wanted to."