how do i know if i love you?

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Bold now represents Japanese Italic represents Chinese and this is Korean

I look up at the sky, a storm is starting to set in. I had gotten to Sapporo late last night and I crashed at a park not to far from the subway station. When I woke up I had caught a taxi to the graveyard.

I bought a bouquet of flowers, yellow daisies and white roses, her favourites. Her grave is covered with flowers, most likely fans paying their respects to their idol.

"Oh, Mirae. I miss you so much." I say in Japanese as I look up at the sky. "You always knew what to do when I had these episodes. You used to stand up for me and take the blame when ever I had to skip practise"

I look down at her grave stone. Tears stream down my face. "Yet you haunt my episodes, my nightmares. You and Jinhee." I say wiping away my tears. "Oh eonni, I don't know what to do without you."

The thunder crackles about me. "I feel so guilty that I was the only person who survived. I should of died with you. I'm sorry."

I finish paying my respects and I kiss the bouquet I got for Mirae. "I got these for you. I hope you like them."

After a while I head out and rain eventually bursts out soaking everything in its path.

Without thinking I find myself walking to Mirae's family's house. I knock on the front door and a young man around Mihyeon's age answers. He smiles at me and I hug him.

"Chaerin, I didn't think I would be seeing you today." He says and I smile. "Your hair looks nice."

"Thank you Rikuto. It's nice seeing you." I say walking in, I take my shoes off and put on a pair of slippers. "I went and visited Mirae today."

"That's nice. There are always so many flowers over at the grave." Rikuto says showing me to the lounge room. "Do you want to drink anything?"

"It's alright. Well maybe a coffee please." I say and he nods smiling before walking off to the kitchen. The door opens and in comes a young girl and her friend, they must have just gotten home from school.

"Fuyuko, we have a visiter." Rikuto yells out, "It's Chaerin."

Fuyuko comes into the lounge room with her friend and her face lights up when she sees me. Fuyuko's friend gasps shocked. "Chaerin! It's so good to see you!"

Fuyuko hugs me excitedly. I smile and hug her back. I notice her friend gasping in shock behind her. "Fuyuko, who's your friend?" I ask.

"Oh my! I can't believe I'm meeting you!" Fuyuko's friend starts. "I'm Haruka! I'm 16 years old."

"Hello Haruka. How are you?" I ask and Haruka almost squeals.

"I'm doing well! I can't believe your at my best friends house! Fuyuko-san I didn't know you knew CM!! Cinnamon!" Haruka exclaims.

"I'm sorry about my friend, she's a really big fan." Fuyuko says and I laugh. "Chaerin, are the others coming?"

"Oh about that.." I start, "I kind of ran away, they might figure I'm here then they will come."

"Oh. Did you go visit Mirae at all?" Fuyuko asks and I nod. Rikuto comes back in the room with a cup of coffee and hands it to me.

"Thank you Rikuto." I say taking a sip of coffee. "Also, I'm wondering if I can stay for a few days?"

"Yes!" Fuyuko exclaims and Rikuto agrees and lets me stay, they lend me the guest room and some of their mother's clothes, even though I insisted that it was fine and I could buy some new ones.