how do i know if i love you?

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I slowly open my eyes it is morning. I sit up and look around, where did Yoongi go? I check how long we have left on the flight, Five hours till landing. 

"Hey Chae," Eun says leaning over the seat. "You look great this morning, did you have a good sleep?" I nod.

"Hey, where did Yoongi go?" I ask she shrugs.

"I think he might of gone to the bathroom, he hopped up in a rush." Eun says. "He avoided Jimin also."

I blush, remembering last night. "Did Jimin say anything? About? Eh?" I ask.

"Oh, Jimin and V went to the snack bar, just before." Eun says, "They didn't even invite me."

"Do you want to go to the snack bar then?" I ask, getting up.

"Oh really? Yes!" Eun say hopping up. "Let me go and brush my hair." She gets up and grabs her personal bag and drags me with her to the bathroom.

Yoongi walks out of the bathroom and looks at me. "Hey." I say waving slightly. He smiles and waves back.

"Chae, can you wait for me." Eun says shutting the door.

"Where are you guys going?" Yoongi asks standing close to me.

"We are going to the snack bar, you want to come?" I ask as he touches my hair.

"Yeah, I'll come." He says as he brushes my hair with his fingers. "Sorry I wasn't there when you woke up."

"It's all right," I say "I had the best sleep I ever had without knockning myself out with alcohol." I stand on my toes and kiss him on the cheek.

Eun comes out of the door, "Hey Yoongi, Chae your hair is brushed?"

"Yeah, I just brushed it quickly. Yoongi's coming with us to the snack bar." I say as we make our way across the plane towards the snack bar. "I'm hungry."

The smell of freshly cooked food fills the room. "Woah, this is so nice." Eun says grabing a plate and fills it up with food. I grab a plate for me and Yoongi.

I fill my plate with foods I have never eaten before. We go and sit down next to Eun, Jimin and Taehyung.

"Hey guys! Chae looks like your well rested." Jimin says, he looks at me then at Yoongi.

"Oh hey!" Taehyung says stuffing his mouth full of food. I smile and shake my head. I pick up a biscuit, it has pink and white icing with coconut on it. I take a bite.

"Hey, did you get any of these?" I ask showing my biscuit. Yoongi nods as he takes a bite of a biscuit just like it. "These are nice."

We finish our food, the food was wonderful. We head back to our seats.

"Hey, are you better this morning?" Yoongi says as we sit down in our seats.

"Yeah." I say. "I just want to say thank you for helping me?" I say leaning on his shoulder.

"Yes." He say smiling, "Hey, can I ask why you were scared last night?"

I look at him then down at my lap. "I have nightmares, about my dad." I pull my long sleeved shirt up revealing my arms. "If you look closely you will see scars, not the longer ones, my father gave me these."

He hugs me tightly to him. "Everytime, I sleep. I am taken back to  those times, those times he cut, cut my hair off, physically and verbally abused me."

"It's going to be ok, I'm here and I will not ever leave you." He says kissing my forehead.

He pulls up netflix on the screen infront of us and plugs his earphones in. "Here." He says passing me a ear bud. "You can chose."

I scroll through the netflix movies when I stop scrolling, my eyes focus on a Chinese movie. "T-that one." I say.

"Are you sure?" he asks and I nod.

"I want to watch my brother's movie." I say clicking on it. Yoongi puts down the divider and moves closer to me, making us so close we are almost sitting on each other.

I look out the window and see that the sun has set, the times zones are quite different than in Korea.

As I watch the movie, I am reminded about Chulmoo's and mine childhood. The story follows a similar storyline to what we had grown up with. Tears freely flow down my eyes. Yoongi must of sensed my pain and he turns the movie off. I hold onto him tightly, he stokes my hair until I calm down.

"Hey, are you hungry? Let's go get food at the snack bar." Yoongi says he trys to get up but I pull him down.

"Please I don't want to move." I say holding onto him.

We sit there in each other's arms until we land.

"Hey, Chae." Jisu says "How was the flight?" She asks as we get of the plane, "I didn't see you the whole time."

"The flight was wonderful." I say as we walk out of the security.

"Chae, I had the best time with Jimin, I think we are getting somewhere!" Eun says running up to me and grabs my hand. 

"Girls, time to go." Our manager says as we get to the entrance. "Well see BTS at the apartment."

We hope in the van and drive off towards the center of the large city. I look out at all the lights of the houses, it reminds me of Seoul at night time.

We we get to the apartment we decide which rooms we want, I ended up sharing with Eun.

I requested that the manager will buy me a few drinks just incase, however the others found out and now I have to share. 

When the manager gets back with my beers, I put them in the fridge and keep on for myself.

I go onto our deck and just sit there and watch the lights over the city. The sound of the crickets is my melody to my song.