how do i know if i love you?

15장

Chinese. Korean English.

"How many shirts do you need to complete?" Chao-Xiang asks zipping up my suit case, I almost drop my dresses.

"Chao-Xiang! Are you serious? Have you never gone on a tour before?" I ask seriousness on my face, "I'll be gone for a long time on tour."

"No I haven't, but surely you don't need 5 suit cases of just clothes!" Chao-Xiang exclaims opening another one of my empty suit cases.

"Well I guess I don't really need them.. But what if something goes wrong and I need them?" I say folding one of my nicest shirts. "Chao-Xiang, I'm going to miss you. Will you come visit me often?"

"Ah, Chao-Xing, I will. I wouldn't miss it for the world." He says. "But just a heads up, you should totally date Yoongi or one of the guys, what are you 24 and yet you have never dated anyone?"

"Well, are you sure I haven't dated anyone? Have you dated anyone. Do you think I can date yet?" I say staring at the wall as if it was him.

"Chae! I'm over here!" He says, speaking in Korean. I turn to face him and then to the wall and back to him realisation hitting me hard.

"Oh no, I've almost lost the plot again." I say slapping my face. "Hehehe?"

"Don't worry, I get that it's hard, but don't be troubled." Chao-Xiang says rubbing my head.

"Unnie~!" I hear a voice yell out and Eunchae runs into the room, stopping when she sees Chao-Xiang. "Oh my gosh, he looks just like you Chae."

"Yes. It's called identical twins for a reason!" I say standing up and grabbing her shoulders. "What is it? Did something happen?"

"No? BTS are here, Jimin is here." She says and I giggle.

"Oh, she's totally crushing on Jimin." I say whispering to Chao-Xiang.

"Hey! Don't talk to him about me! In another language! That's what you call rude." Eun says

"ok ok." I mumble, "What did you want me to do?"

"Ok, if you haven't noticed," She says, "I don't have any makeup on." she says patting her checks.

"Ok ok I'll do your makeup." I laugh getting up the grab my makeup bag from the bathroom.

I love doing other people's makeup as it helps with controlling my disorder. It's hard having the disorder but I haven't gotten it as hard as what others have it.

As I grab my makeup bag I catch sight of my reflection in the mirror, "Makeup?" I mumble rubbing my white skin that i've inherited from my mother, my freckles now freely showning.

I tie up my cinnamon brown hair, it is one of the reasons for my name, my eyes are also naturally cinnamon brown, which is odd.

"Chae?" EunChae says walking in to the small white bathroom, I look at her and pick up the makeup brush from the marble bench.

"I'm coming." I say looking at myself one last time, "should I do my makeup too?"

I turn around and walk out of the room. I'm met with my kumamon plush filled room. Chao-Xiang now resting on my kumamon bed reading one of the books from the bookshelf.

I sit down next to Eun, she ties up her died blonde hair showing her mature face.

"You are lucky you have a good face, I'm 25 and look at me, I still look like I'm five." I say applying foundation to her face. I rub it in covering the smaller blemishes on her face.

"No you are, you have the cutest freckles on your face and you don't have any pimples." she says pouting as I do her lipstick.

"Done!" I say smiling at her. "Jimin will surely think you are beautiful!"

"Chao-Xing, what about you? Why don't you do some makeup to dress up for Yoongi?" Chao-Xiang pips up from my bed.

"N-No!" I say quickly whilst standing up of the chair.

He just laughs at me and stands up we walk out the room. "I want to really meet this young boy."

"He's not young! He's older than you! You're 22!" I say defensively, "Ugghh yeah.."

"Wow, I don't understand Japanese!" Eunchae says pushing me into the seat.

"Yo, Eun it's Chinese not Japanese!" Chao-Xiang says standing up.

"Same thing," she says and I roll my eyes. "Oh my goodness, Chae you look like a goddess! Who created you?"

"Do you want to know how I was created?" I say as Eun brush back my hair.

"NO! Why didn't you tell us you had a twin?" Eun says putting a head band on my face to keep my hair from getting on my face.

"Well, I never thought about it." I say standing up and brushing off my shirt and fixing my hair. "If, I'm a Goddess Chulmoo is a God."

"Chae? What language do you think in anyways?" Eun says as Chao-Xiang walks out into the living room, mumbling something about cousin Namjoon.

"Well, I guess I think in Korean, However I dream a lot of the time in Chinese. Sometimes I think in Chinese as well." I say as we walk out the door and into the hallway, "My Chinese isn't as good as it used to be."

"Hey." V says as we walk into the lounge room. I take a seat on the lounge next to Chulmoo and Namjoon.

My long hair getting caught behind my back as I sit. My hair is beginning to fray at the ends after I died it to brown again a couple days ago.

"So, who is sitting next to who?" Jimin says piping up.

"I don't know." Namjoon says pulling my hair causing me to groan in pain. "Chae, you dyed your hair."

"Yes, I did. Glad you noticed." I say. The others attentions are fully on who is sitting next to who.

The sight of this many people all together not fighting with each other warms my heart. I'm just glad that everyone gets along with each other.

My attention is taken of the others and now focused on Yoongi, his eyes studying my face, I blush and look away. However, I just got to look at him, at his face. I look back at him, I study his facial features at his eyes, his lips.

"I-im going back to my r-room now" I say to Chulmoo next to me, he looks at me in worry, I reassure him I'm fine.

I quickly walk down the hallway into my room, causing the others to pay attention to me. Once I reach my room I shut my door.

"Crap, I think I like him." I say sitting down on my bed. I hold my chest, trying to steady my heartbeat.