how do i know if i love you?

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My brother came to pick me up from the airport even though my manager insisted that he would drive me but I refused, even my personal assistant offered, but I just wanted to spend time with my brother.

"So, can you tell me anything about the drama or not?" I ask and he shakes his head. He looks like he had a rough sleep last night or fun, I can't decide. It's early in the morning and he hasn't even brushed his curly hair yet, his freckles more prominent for some reason this moring. He focuses on driving me to get some breakfast. "Damn, can you tell me at least who the actors are?" I ask and he sighs.

"Umm I'm the main male character, obviously. Do you know Lee Jieun? Or do you know her as IU?" My brothers says and I freak out, well not really. I've always looked up to IU and she debuted at such a young age like me, well I was seventeen not fifteen.

"Woah! IU?!? Really can I meet her?" I ask and my brother pretends to think before shaking his head. "You're so mean." I say and he laughs slightly.

"Is she as pretty in real life as well?" I ask and he kinda coughs a bit before nodding. "Do you get the chance to kiss her in the drama? It's romance right?"

He ignores my question and we arrive shortly at a car park. After around an hour and a half of driving we finally arrived in Seoul. We have to get out of the car and walk the rest of the way to the resturant. It's rather small, but it smells so good.

I have a face mask and a pair of glasses on, as well as a bucket hat. I'm also still wearing well drowning in Yoongi's sweater I'm that small and thin, I just hope no one notices the hickeys on my neck as my hair can't cover my neck. My well, Mihyeon's cardigan.

The place is filled with the smell of pancakes, I mean it is called the 'Original Pancake House' for a reason. We sit down at one of the booth and some people point at us, I mean they probably figure that we are idols because of our glasses and face masks.

"So, I know I already asked this, can I meet IU? I know I've already met her but I haven't really gotten the chance to talk to her much." I ask and again my brother shakes his head. We order our breakfast. I clutch my hand around my phone and look up at him, I need to know.

"Hey, Chao-Xiang have you been getting any messages from an unknown nu-" I start, the words coming back to my head, one wrong move and they'll kill me.

There's a ding and I go to check my phone, 'Careful, one wrong word, sentence, actions, one wrong move and I'll make sure that there wont be any next chance. If he figures out what you meant, it wont be you that you have to worry about.' I quickly place my phone down. They're not just threatening me now, my brother's life is at risk.

"Forget I said anything." I quickly say and he looks at me strangely, his eyes show he is in deep thought. I don't want to risk his life as well.

There must be tracking on my phone, I'm sure off it, If I want to say something I should make sure I am a far away from my phone as possible.

"Oh my Gosh are you CM?" A voice says and I look up to see a young girl, most likely 15. I make sure that my neck is out of view, I don't want her to spread anything on the internet.

I pull down my glasses and she gasps, "It is you! I thought you were on tour in America! Can I have a photo?" She asks and I nod, she glances at My brother and drops her phone. "No way, I never thought that I would meet both of you! You guys are like trending!" She says hurriedly picking up her phone. "I need a photo!" She exclaims and we pose for a photo.

"Oh my gosh CM are you hurt? There is a bruise on your neck!" She exclaims and I feel my heart drop. What do I say.

"I'm not hurt, MiMi threw her water bottle at me in practise yesterday. She didn't mean it" I say and she sighs and closes her eyes.

"You're voice is just as angelic as it sounds on TV." She says and I realise that I haven't actually said anything to her. "Do you sing as well? I feel like you would be a great singer! Oh my gosh, that's the nicest sweater I've ever seen where did you get it from?" My boyfriend, I think but I can't say that or else I'd probably be ruined.

"That's a secret for another day, and If you are going to post that picture could you wait just a few weeks? Or don't have any context on what the day is or anything, I don't want people really to know I'm here right now." I say and she nod excitedly. "Thank you."

"You are really pretty by the way! My brother, he's like 19 and he has the biggest crush on you!" She exclaims and I smile softly and she fangirls slightly. "And you're brother is the most handsomest man I've ever seen!"

I see my brother smirk to himself, "Thanks, I tried my hardest. No one looks as good as me." He exclaims and she laughs at him.

The young girl finishes talking to us and she skips happily out of the restaurant. I smile to myself and continue to eat my pancakes.

After a while we finally get up and my brother drops me off at the Big Hit entertainment building, I wave goodbye to him.

As I walk into the building, I just can't  help but think I told him too much about the messages. I'd rather that I get in trouble not Chao-Xiang. He's only 24, his life is really just beginning.  

As soon as I enter I am surrounded by makeup artists and stylists. There is a lady holding a traditional hanbok and a traditional Hanfu.

The Jeogori of the hanbok is a light pink with white flowers and the Chima is a silky white and at the bottom were light pink flowers, the Otgoreum was a dark magenta. It looks so pretty.

The Hanfu was a pastel blue, opposite from the Hanbok. The Xiuzi was a pale blue with small white flowers, a design you would see on lace. The Qun was almost the same as the Xiuzi expect there was no patterns on it, the yaodai was a silky white, similar to the white on the hanbok.

I turn around to see one of the clothing stylists holding a Yupei or Jade ornament, she attaches it to the Hanfu. The dress are so pretty and most likely custom made and really expensive.

I walk over to one of the dresses and run my hand over the fabric of the skirt. It is the nicest feeling that I've ever felt. 

"CM, get your self ready we will be leaving to start filming soon." A person says and I nod. "We are going to Yongin Daejanggeum Park." I gasp.

"No way, that's were Hwarang was filmed!" I say excitedly, she nods and the other staff members take the dresses and pack them away in bags. 

They finish getting me ready, they put something in my hair to make it less curly. The makeup artist comes to me and gets a thick foundation she applies it to my neck, covering the hickeys. "Don't worry I won't say anything." She whispers quietly before she applies it to my face as well before doing my eye make up.

It's around an hour and a half trip to the park. Once we get there I'm shocked, there is barely anyone there except for extras and backup dancers.

They help me get dressed into the Hanbok and it feels quite nice and smooth on my body, it's rather heavy compared to what I normally wear.

It's not long before we start recording. They get me to do a whole bunch of  scenes to show that I was torn between my Chinese heritage and Korean heritage. Some of the rap is even in Chinese.

A/N
Sweet. Lets see how Chae will do without other peoples.