how do i know if i love you?

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I sit there on the edge of my bed, Eun stands infront of me as if she is a teacher. She explains to me love and different symptoms of love.

It's been a few days since Yoongi told me he liked me. He hasn't really said anything about that night, but I can tell he is still waiting for me to give him answer.

"You must love yourself in order to love someone else whole heartedly!" Eun says sitting down on her bed.

"Noted!" I say. One thing I've been working one was loving myself. Every time I look in the mirror I compliment myself. I can say I love myself more than I did a month ago.

Eun does a little dance and lies back on my bed with me. "You will figure it out soon, maybe you should think about it for awhile!" Eun says cheering for me.

"Yes! I'll get it one day!" I cheer, we laugh and prepare ourselves for bed.

"Eunchae.." I start getring her attention. "Do you love Jimin?"

She looks at me her face bright red. "I'm not sure yet, I know I really like him though."

"Aww." I say getting my pjs on.

Like always I spend the night in Yoongi's room. Eun gives me encouragement every night. I leave the room and I pass Jimin in the hallway.

"Jimin, do you love Eunchae?" I ask, his face goes bright red. He looks toward Eun's room and then towards me.

"I suppose I do." I smile at him and then walk away.

I walk into Yoongi's room and wrap my arms around him. Do I love him? I don't know!

When I had woken up, Yoongi had already left the room.

I get up and go get myself ready. Everyone is eating breakfast in the kitchen. Eun comes up to me and sits beside me.

"Did you have a good sleep?" She asks and I nod. "Have you figured it out yet?"

"No, I hope I do soon." I say, "It's almost been a week, this morning he had already left the room before I had woken up." I whisper looking down at my toast that Eun got for me.

"Don't worry, if he loves you he will wait." Eun whispers eating her toast with jam on it.

"What if I offended him?" I whisper, starting to panic that I hurt his feelings. "I feel bad now."

"It will be alright." Eun says wrapping her arm around my shoulder. I stand up leaving my half eaten toast on the counter.

"I need to think." I say walking towards my room. I pass Yoongi in the hallway. We look at eachother for a while, my heart racing. Is this it?

I walk around him and enter my room, I sit on my bed and look up at the roof.

This feeling that I just felt when I saw Yoongi in the hallway, it was like a very concentrated shot of glee, just like what Eun said love was.

Then I realize it, I love him. "I love Yoongi." I mutter. I stand up and make my way to his room. I burst into the room and he looks at me confused.

"I um. I need to talk to you.." I say he looks at me confused. He holds a pair of clothes in one hand.

"Do mind I have a shower?" I shake my head, it gives me more time to think of what I am going to say to him.

He walks into the shower. "Chao-Xing you got this!" I say to myself in Chinese. "I love you. Ok I got this. I love you, I love Yoongi!" I whisper walking back and forth in his room.

Hurry up and get out of the shower! I look at the clock next to his bed, he has been in there for two minutes?

I can't wait any longer. I go to open the bathroom door. Do I really want to do this? I can't wait any longer! I love you Yoongi!

I slide the door open. I shut the door behind me and lock it. "Chae? What are you doing?" Yoongi asks from the shower. I ignore his question and peel my clothes off. "Chae?" He chokes.

I walk into the shower with him, "Chae?" I place my hands on his shoulders. He looks me up and down.

"Yoongi, I, I love you!" I say looking at him in the eyes. "I love you! I love you." I say looking at him.

He looks at me then at my lips. He places his hand on my face and he kisses me. He pushes me against the wall of the bathroom, the water and steam covering us. I wrap my legs around him and kiss him.

I place my hand on the back of his head. For the first time all I can think off is how much I love this man. We pull away for air.

"I love you Chae." He says before kissing my neck, I let out a moan and place my hand on his back.

"I want you." I moan out as he kisses my jaw.

He kisses me on the lips, he slips his tongue into my mouth causing me to let out another moan. I love him.

He places his hand under my breast and pulls away for air, "I want you too." He says. The water from the shower making his bare body slippery. 

I guess, no I know this is what love feels like

A/N
I can't give y'all details, I'm sorry, I am not comfortable with those types of things. Also my religion says its adultery so yeahh. Maybe in a future book?
Also sorry this is a rly short chapter.