how do i know if i love you?

59장

I rumble through the closet and take out a pair of long black jeans. I replace my shorts with the jeans. I look through the clothes to try and find a fashionable jacket. I sigh when I don't like any of my jackets. I look through Yoongi's closet and find a leather jacket.

I put it on and take a black cap, a pair of glasses and a mask. I pack a bag with all the stuff I might need and I sneak out of the apartment.

I arrive at a stadium after awhile and I sneak in. BTS are having a performance and I wanted to go and watch as I've never seen them perform.

There are fans everywhere and many are screaming. I take a spot in the stadium where I can get closest without being noticed.

Some one bumps into me causing me to loose my balance. They grab my arms and stop me from falling. "I'm so sorry, It's really crowded. I didn't mean too." A young girls says and I look up at her, she has black, short bobish hair. Her eyes are pitch black and she is around 20cm taller than me.

"It's alright," I say adjusting my mask slightly and looking up at her. She smiles at me.

"It would be really bad if a small guy like you would be knocked over and trampled on, it's a good thing I caught you." She says smiling at me, she points at my jacket before exclaiming, "Are you a Yoongi stan? Yoongi wore that jacket a few times I swear, I could never find the store he brought it at."

"Ughh, actually I'm a Namjoon stan." I say looking down. "This is my boyfriend's jacket."

"I'm sorry for assuming." She says smiling at me. "I'm a Namjoon fan as well! Actually I taught myself Korean!"

"Oh that's great! I didn't want to be speaking in Japanese for much longer, I'm Chaerin by the way." I say and she smiles brightly at me.

"I'm Hanika, nice to meet you." She says, "You have the same name of one of the K-pop idols I stan! CM from Midnight girls."

We talk for a while before the main lights go off and music starts. 7 men walk out onto the stage and start performing. Hanika jumps up and down excitedly along to the music. It's contagious and soon I'm jumping along as well.

Yoongi starts rapping hyping Haruka and I up. "Yes Babe!" I yell loudly as me and Hanika fangirl loudly. I readjust my face mask as it is getting harder to breathe wearing it. 

There's a sign of recognition on his face and his eyes scan the crowd as he raps. Hanika turns to me, "I thought you were a Namjoon stan? You sure you aren't a Yoongi stan?" She says and I touch my face in discomfort and shrug at her comment. "You should take the mask off, it looks like it is uncomfortable."

I take the mask off my face and my breathing improves straight away. Hanika is watching them perform so she wont notice anything.

Hanika has a light stick which I didn't notice before. She hands it to me and offers to lift me up. She piggy backs me and I wave the light stick above our heads. "Yess get it! Wooo!" Hanika cheers loudly and I smile.

"Yes! Wooo!" I exclaim, I'm now higher than everyone else so I would stand out to them. Jin notices me and smiles before whispering something to the others. "Yo Hanika! This is awesome! I've never been to a BTS concert before! This is so fun!" I exclaim waving the light stick.

Yoongi looks in our direction after Jin whispered to the others. I make eye contact with him and he can't contain his smile. "I know! This is my first concert as well! It's so fun!" Hanika exclaims.

After a while Hanika puts me down because she can't carry me any longer. The concert doesn't last that much longer and once it finishes and BTS has dissapeared off stage the lights switch back on. Hanika turns to me excitedly but stops when she sees my face. "Oh my! You are CM!" She exclaims and I shrug. I put my mask on and drag her outside of the main room.