how do i know if i love you?

40장

I groan as the nurse rubs cream onto my hand and neck. She tells me that I should be careful but that I was lucky that my burn wasn't any worse. The nurse is a Korean lady so she speaks to me in Korean.

The nurse finishes up and brings out a check board. "You are on medication already right?" she asks, "I'll like just check them off."

I nod and then explain what I am on. She thanks me and then gives me a prescription of a special burn cream. I thank her and I leave.

Midnight's manager picks me up from the hospital. "What did they say?" He asks and I reach into my bag for the prescription.

"They want me to get this cream and apply it twice a day." I say showing him the list. He nods and then tells me to put it in the glove box.

As I put it in the glove box my phone dings. I check it, it is that unknown number again, my mood drops.

"What is it?" Manager-nim asks and I shake my head.

"It was nothing." I say and I check what the message says, 'You have always been stupid. Next time there won't be an happy ending.'

Once we get the the hotel, manager-nim drops me off and I quickly rush into the hotel.

The others try and get my attention but I go and sit in my room. I lock the door behind me, I don't want anyone coming in.

I open my phone up and click on to the message, what do they mean by there won't be an happy ending. I sigh and place my phone next to my laptop. I sit down on a seat infront of my laptop.

I open it up and click onto naver. I notice that #youngcmsinging is trending but I ignore it, I type in the name of my fathers business.

I click onto the website and find the phone number for my father. Once I find it I check the number on my phone than that number under my father's name.

They aren't the same. I sigh and put down my phone and shut down my laptop. I stand up and brush myself off, I hear a knock on my door.

I go and open the door, Mihyeon comes in and sits down on my bed, I look at her confused, but I figure she wants to talk to me so I shut the door.

I sit down on the bed next to her and she looks up at me. "Chae, do you know what it is like to really like some one, like so much it hurts?" She asks and I look down at her.

"Yes." I say quietly, Mihyeon quickly sits up and looks at me in the face. She places her hands on my shoulders and I look at her in the eyes.

"What the heck? When did that happen? Who do you like?" Mihyeon asks seriously, I didn't think that I would have this conversation.

"Umm, you tell me what you want to tell me first and um we can talk about this um later." I say, I don't know how I could tell her that I like Yoongi, that we are dating even.

"Come on you have to tell me." She begs and I just look at her, what can I say that I have a boyfriend? She keeps begging me and I don't think that she will ever let it go, so I give in.

"I umm I'm seeing someone." I say nerviously, this only makes her questioning worse. She wants to know who it is.

"Tell me who! You know I like Hoseok, why can't you tell me who! It's not Hoseok is it? It's Hoseok isn't it?" She says and I look at her seriously, if I don't say anything she'll think I like Hoseok, It's hurting her feelings.

"Yoongi." I say and she looks at me, "It's Yoongi, I'm dating Yoongi." I mumble and she looks at me and then smiles, she hugs me catching me off guard.

"Really? I should have guessed it," She says laughing slightly, "Looking back at it, it's really obvious."

"It's obvious?" I ask and she nods.

"So who knows about you and Yoongi?" She asks and then I take a deep thought.

"Umm, my brother, Namjoon, Eun, Jimin, Jin and Taehyung." I say and she looks at me heart broken.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She asks and I explain that I don't want the manager to know about us and that it would be risky everyone knowing.

There's a knock on the door and I excuse myself to go and open it, Eun is standing in front of me, she has her earphones in like she was just watching something.

She comes in and sees Mihyeon sitting on my bed. I sit down next to them on the bed and Eun opens up her phone to show me a video.

"This is trending right now." She says and she starts the video. I look down at the video, it's a old concert by an old famous Chinese singer, my mum.

There's a little girl running on the stage about 8 years old, it's me. My mother introduces the eight year old me and I go to sing.

I quickly turn off Eun's phone, she looks at me shocked. I quickly get up and leave the room. I feel tears pricking at my eyes.

I run into a person and they try and ask me if I'm alright but I quickly run down the stairs instead of taking the elevator.

I run out of the hotel and I look around, I start running to my left. I don't know how long I've been running for but I end up near the beach. I stop and look out at the beach, the sun starting to set.

I walk down to the water and I kneel down and I run my fingers through the water. I don't know why I ran off but I just can't stand to see that video. I sit down on the sand and lie back. I look up at the sky and sigh to myself.

I close my eyes and let my thoughts run wild.

My mother stands on the stage, my brother stands beside me as we cheer for her. I want to be just like her and sing for my fans.

My brother dances besides me and I smile. My father stands behind me, I can feel his gaze on my shoulder.

"Chao-Xing, come here!" My mum says and I quickly run onto the stage. I stand beside my mother and she introduces me as her daughter.

The next thing I know she's handing me the mic and she tells me to sing and I do. I know this is what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I open my eyes to see that the sun had set and my feet are submerged in the water. I sit up and rub my eyes, that was a nice sleep.

I look off into the distance the stars shine brightly, I silently sing the song that I sang on the stage with my mother.

I close my eyes and image that I was back then, that I am performing with my mum.

I stand up and wipe the sand off my clothes and my hair. I stand up and prepare to walk back to the hotel. I cross the street and sigh, I don't know were the hotel is.

I open my phone to see that I've gotten multiple missed calls from the others. I check through the list of people that have called me deciding who to call.

Just as I was going to call my phone dies, I groan and walk in the direction I think I came from.

I continue walking and look around, there isn't a lot of people out at this time of night. I place my hands in the pocket of my trackpants to try and keep my hands warm. I look down at the ground and watch my feet move. For a moment I think I hear a person call my name. The next thing I know there is someone hugging me, I almost fall, I look up to see a tall figure, I almost don't recognize him, It's Namjoon.

"Oh my Chae are you alright? You had all of us frightened!" Namjoon says and I apologize and we walk back to the hotel, on the way he calls all the others and explains that he found me.

He rubs my hair and sand falls out onto his hand, he laughs and tells the person on the other line that I was at the beach.

Namjoon wraps his arm around my shoulders and we walk back to the hotel together.

A/N
Young Chaerin singing? I wanna hear that.