how do i know if i love you?

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As the manager suggested the crowd loves my outfit. It is something they aren't used to. I mean usually I wear a white suit with a light pink tube top, not this.

I feel girly it isn't something I'm used to. I dance along to the dance and the crowd loves it.

I rap my part, I don't think I really look like a rapper in this outfit, I've been told by people that they could tell who was the rapper by my outfit.

The performance ends, what seemed like two hours felt like a minute, I'm standing in front of the crowd now.

"Do you lrike my outfit?" I ask and the response is wonderful. I do a little twirl and a curtsy.

We finish up and wait backstage for the manager to get here. He comes in soaking wet. He explains that it is raining and it probably won't get any better. My brother rushes in after him.

"I don't think it is going to stop." He says and I groan. I didn't bring any jacket or anything and they can't drive the van right in backstage.

We decide to sit there for a while to see if it does lighten up.

"Chae, are you going to start writing a new song? I want you to sing in it!" Mihyeon asks as everyone sits in the room.

"Wait CM sings?" Hoseok asks and Mihyeon nods her head with excitement.

"Chae sang the backing vocals for my own song." Mihyeon says. They look at me and I scratch the back of my head.

"I'm not that good," I mumble, Mihyeon looks at me shocked and then insists that I am a great singer.

"Sing for us." Taehyung says moving closer to the action. The other cheer me on to sing but I refuse. Everyone in the room is now asking me to sing, the only ones not are Namjoon and Yoongi as they aren't here yet.

I sigh and eventually give in. I stand up and make my way to the piano in the corner of the room. I sit down and stretch and being playing.

I decide on playing 'paint me' it is a song that only recently was released. As soon as I start sing there is no noise.

"One layer, two layers, getting painted." I try and match my voice as much as possible to theirs when they sing it. "Here and there, getting engraved. Keep painting me."

Close my eyes and listen to myself singing to the music. Everyone is watching me sing, I don't what to mess up.

"Yellow when you suddenly came to me." I sing. When they first released the song, I loved it so much that I learnt how to play it on the piano and I learnt the lyrics as well. I just never thought that I sing them out loud to the others.

After what seems like ages I finish playing on the piano. Once I stop there is no song I turn around to face them, did I kill them with my horrible voice?

"Was I that bad?" I ask and they shake their heads.

"That was beautiful." Jisu says and I sigh. "Thats it we should make Chae a vocal."

I look up to see Namjoon and Yoongi standing at the door frame. "Chae, I haven't heard you sing since you were like ten." Namjoon says walking in and sitting down on the couch.

I look up at Yoongi then at the rest of them. I'm not used to this I stand up and stretch and go and sit down next to Eun. "Someone's impressed." She says pointing slightly to Yoongi. "He came in and you should have seen the shock on his face.

"We will be leaving soon." The manager says, "We haven't been able to get any umbrellas or cover so if there is something you don't want to get wet put it in this bag."

We quickly put our phones in the bag and we wait for the van to pull up. When it does we rush out, geting soaked by the heavy ran.

I look down at my shirt and just like I thought when I put it on it is see through. I sigh and sit back in the car and look out the window. Why did they pick such an outfit?

"Chae, next time I write a song, you are going to have to have a part where you are singing." Jisu says looking over the back seat, I sigh and look at her.

"I don't think fireflies would be prepared for it." I say and Eun laughs from beside me. Mihyeon insists the the fans would love it but I strugg, little do they know I do have plans. "We have been a group for what six years? I have not sung once, they will be so shocked." I say and they agree bit explain that it is an even better reason to sing in a song.

"Guys, we have a free day tomorrow what do you want to do?" Eunchae says changing the topic, I look over at her think.

"I'm might work out." Mihyeon says, "Dance practise as well." She says and we nod.

"I'm going to sleep." I say and they laugh, "If I ever wake up I'll write a new song, how does that sound?"

"Yes Chae do that! You need to sing!" Jisu says, "I think I will practise my cooking, I haven't cooked since yesterday."

"You should cook with Jin!" I say and she looks away slightly, her ears a light pink. "He is a good cook, maybe not the best to cook with but you should!"

She looks out the window and her ears are pink. "Jisu are you sick already? Do you have a cold?" Mihyeon asks and Jisu shakes her head.

"Do you think she likes Jin?" Eun whispers to me and I strugg.

"She probably is just cold, it is to early to decide if she has a crush on him or not." I whisper back and she nods. We spend the rest of the ride in silence.

My outfit drys slightly but it probably doesn't matter as it is still raining outside and we will have to walk in the ran for a while.

We hop out of the car and rush to the hotel, we get soaked all over again. Once we get in everyone rushes to their rooms. I grab my phone out of the bag and walk to my room. I accidently drop my phone again, it is a surprise that it isn't broken.

I lean over to grab it. I hear someone coughing behind me. I turn to see Yoongi standing there, he probably was walking to his room as well.

He looks at me then at my chest I blush and look up at him. "Umm hi." He says and I wave. He scratches his head and then looks around when he doesn't see anyone he turns to me. "Chae you shouldn't wear such clothes, you're giving me bad thoughts."

"Why like what you see?" I ask and he looks at me up and down. "Or would you prefer I take it off?" He coughs and then looks at me.

"You look so good," He says at last. "I don't think that you should take it off, not here at least." I look at him confused.

"Whats wrong with this location?" I ask and his face goes bright red.

"When did you get so confident?" He says and them wraps his arm around my shoulder. We walk to his room and he shuts the door straight after him. "You're giving me thoughts. I can see right through you shirt, I can see the tattoo"

I look up at him and he places his hand on my face, he leans down and then kisses me. He lifts me up and my back presses against the wall.

I wrap my arm around his neck and kiss him passionately. I hold onto his shirt and he pulls away he looks at me and then kisses my neck. I moan as it slightly hurts. He carries me to his bed and lays me down, and he looks down at me and kisses me again.

"I love you."

A/N
Sorry no details. Not comfortable with it sorry.