how do i know if i love you?

20장

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I pick up my phone half asleep. It's another message from an unknown number. I look over at Yoongi and then at my phone. I get out of the bed quickly. I notice that it is only 3:48 in the morning.

I walk into the bathroom and open up the message. It's in Chinese this time.

'That boy won't keep you safe. I'm still here. I know everything about you. What can I say? We're family.'

I drop my phone when I read what it says. What am I going to do? There following me. Aren't they? I sit down on the floor. Emotions just coming and leave. I pull my legs up to my body.

I hear a loud thundering bang and followed by a down pour of rain. Another storm. I flick the light on and as I do, a flash of lighting lights the room. The lights won't turn on, it's a black out.

It's that lady from my dream. She appears only when the lighting hits. It's as if she is getting struck by lighting. 

I hear the door open, but I don't look to see who it is. The women looks so fimilar. She turns to bones and fades away. I let out a silent scream and I hold my head in pain.

I feel a figure hold onto me, as if to comfort me. I can only feel fear, this sort of thing only happens in storms but it's always been my dad, never that woman.

The lights flicker but don't turn on. "Chae." I hear someone say but I don't know if it is in my head or not. "Chae!" The person says louder. Yoongi. I turn around to face Yoongi. I hold on to him as if life depended on it.

He strokes my hair. "You weren't there when I woke up." He says. "I was worried."

Yoongi stands up and picks me up. He pushes the door open to his bedroom. He flicks the light off just as they turn on. He lays me down on his bed and he lays down beside me. "I don't know what I would do without you." I whisper holding onto him tight. He looks at me and strokes my hair.

"It's my job to care for you. I Lo- um you mean an awful lot to me, I fell for you." He whispers back playing with my hair.

I sit up and force him to sit up with me. "Where you just about to say the L word?" I say softly wrapping my hands around his neck, forgetting all my emotions from before.

He strokes my hair. "Would it be bad if I did?" He whispers moving his head closer to me.

I move my head closer to him and kiss him. I hold onto him tightly. He falls back I kiss him more than ever before. I can't understand these new feelings that I've never had before. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. He holds onto me tighter.

We pull apart, I look at him. These new emotions clear in my mind. What does love feel like? I question myself. He looks at me as he takes in a breath of air.

"I guess I do." He whispers before kissing me again. It's sweet but lustful at the same time. I want him.
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I awake to Yoongi, still sleeping next to me. I just lie there looking at his facial features. What time is it? I sit up quickly waking Yoongi up as I do. It's bright, it seems like it is morning.

I go to grab my phone to check the time but I remember I left it in the bathroom.

"What is it?" Yoongi asks looking at me, he holds my hand.

"The time, what time is it we don't want to get caught do we?" I say and he sits. I eye his topless chest but look away quickly. He smirks at me.

"Let's get up then, I don't think the others will be awake yet." He says getting out of the bed. As I get out of bed I pull off his bed sheets and cover myself with them to keep myself warm. He laughs at me and I give him a look.

"I left my phone in the bathroom" I say walking into the bathroom and I pick up my phone, the screen is cracked from dropping it on the tiles.

I walk back out of the bathroom with my broken phone, the bed sheets still warm me. I just look at Yoongi, I smile at him and walk out of the bedroom.

I hear him say something but I can't make out what he was saying. I pass the living room, Namjoon and Jisu sit there watching the TV. Namjoon looks up at me.

"Chae, you look like a mess." He says. "What's with the blanket anyway?"

"It's cold." I say continuing to the room that I am sharing with Eun. I open the door to my room. Eunchae looks up at me.

"I thought you would be dressed and ready," She says making her bed. "Wait, were did you get that blanket from?"

I look at her and strug. I don't think she realises that it's Yoongi's. "I slept in the bathroom. I took the sheets from the cupboard." I say, the lie rolls easily of my tongue.

I walk to my bed and lie on it. "Chae! Get up!" Eun says. I groan and roll of my bed. The cold air hits my bare legs as I lie on the ground.

"Just let me get dressed first." I say.

I get dressed in an over sized shirt and medium length pants. I grab Yoongi's blanket, I drag it through the hallway on the floor all the way back to his room.

"Hey." I say as I walk into his room. Yoongi has just gotten out of the shower. "I took your blanket." I say lifting up his blanket up awkwardly.

"Chae." He says softly. "You're too cute." I frown at him, he just smiles at me.

I put the blanket on his bed and lie down on it. He get dressed and joins me on the bed. "Did you have a good night sleep after?"

"Yeah, It was ok." I say resting my head on his chest. "We better go get breakfast."

"Yeah," He says rubbing my head softly.