how do i know if i love you?

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너 미쳤오?????

Bold:Chinese

"Appa?" the young son questioned when he saw his sister on the floor. "Appa?!" The elder man -The young son's father- stood infront of the young girl with a bottle of beer in his hands.

"Get up you stupid young brat! How dare you faint whilest I'm talking to you?" Father yelled taking a drink of his beer. "Get the hell up!"

"ChulMoo! Please stop it! It's just syncope!" Mother calls out running into the room "Chao-xiang please go to your room please!"

"Ok Mummy." Chao-Xiang says as he begins to walk up stares.

"ChulMoo, we need to take her to the hospital." Chao-Xiang hears his mother state. "We have to take her now."

"She can just stay here, we don't need her do we?" his father states.

"No, Chulmoo, I'm serious. She might have narcolepsy! I'm worried." she states.

Unknown pov.

"Narcolepsy?"

"Sir, we'll be leaving for Korea in an hour." My assistant says looking down at her screen.

"Will there be any chance I could visit Sokcho when I get there?" I ask wanting to see my old town.

"Sir, I'm afraid we might not have enough time, well be in Seoul for the majority of the time." She says shaking her head.

"Hmm, when is Midnight Girls leaving for America?" I ask grabbing my suit case.

"They are leaving now, sir." She says.

"Thanks Hua, I guess we'll miss them then." I mumble.

"Sir, do you want me to contact Bighit to organize a meeting?" Hua says. I feel a wave a butterflies pass through my stomach.

"You can do that?" I question, she nods. "Well then I would like you to call Bighit when we get to Korea so we can organize when Midnight Girls is free to meet up." I say.

"Yes sir." Hua says.

"Hua I told you, don't call me sir, I'm an actor not a CEO." I say grabbing my bag.

Chaerin's Pov.

"Namjoon-ah, for the last time I'm fine." I say popping a straw into a banana milk bottle.

"Are you sure? You haven't talked as much as you normally do. You haven't eaten proper meals! How much do you weigh now?" Namjoon says sitting down next to me.

"I said I'm fine. When I say I'm fine I'm fine." I say standing up. "Excuse me, I'm going to grab my bags and get my stuff ready to leave."

"Do you need help?" Namjoon offers.

"No thank you, I'll see you in a couple hours." I say making my way to my room.

"Why is life so terrible?" I mutter, shutting my door. "What did I do to deserve this?"

I flop on my bed, 'don't cry'. I look at up my small chicken plush. It looks so old now. It was the plush I had as a little child, I'm suprised I still have it.

"Don't cry." I mutter, my eyes watering. "Please, It doesn't do you any good."

I throw the plush halfway across the room. "Why did I keep you?" I mutter. "I hate you."

There was a knock on the door. "Chae? Are you okay? Can you open up?" It was Lea. 'why does she always worry about me?'

"I-i'm fine." I call out. 'there's a knife on the floor..' I spot a knife on the floor from when I made my lunch on friday.. "I forgot about that." I mumble.

"Are you going to let me in?" Lea asks. I look down at my room, it's a mess, pillows thrown everywhere, Clothes scattered on the floor.

"I'm busy." I say, when did my room become such a mess? It's always so clean. "Can you come back later?"

I grab hold of my head and silently scream. How did my life get so distroyed? Tears stream down my eyes. 'You're pathetic. Hideous. No one will ever love you.'

"My friends.. They love me right?" I mumble, 'They are lying to you.'

"Appa? My friends want me to go out with them." I say grabbing my bag. He stands up and rips my bag in two. "That was the last thing Eomma gave me! Stop! No!"

"You are pathetic. Hideous. No one will ever love you. Your mother never did. Is she here? No!" He grabs me by my hair, I let out a high pitch scream. "You are not leaving this house."

"No please! Let go of me please!" I scream. "Please!"

"Shut up will you?" He yells slamming my back into the wall. I scream in pain.

"Let me go!" I scream.

"You're worthless! Pathetic! If you don't shut up I'll drop you off at North Korea, where they'll kill you." He says pushing against my body making it hard for me to breathe.

"I dare you." I mutter. He looks down at me.

"What was that?" He questions looking at me.

"I dare you." I say loudly "Do it! I dare you to! Death is better than you! I'd rather die than be your daughter!"

"What was that?" He says slamming me against the wall harder.

"Feed me to the wolves! Sharks! North Koreans! Snakes, Spiders! I dare you! Kill me!" I scream. He grabs me by my hair, he pulls me through the house. "No! Stop it! Stop it!" I scream. "Stop!"

"You want to die, I want you to die." He spits. "I'm simply doing what you wanted me to do."

"No! Stop! You monster! You would really kill your own daughter? You are sick!" I scream. "You deserve to die! You're a monster!"

"You spoke your voice before! If you want to die, DIE! You _____!" He yells.

"Stop it! Now! Please!" I scream trying to get loose. He swings his fist forwards and hits me in the nose. I let out a screen and collapse to the floor.

"Chae! Chaerin!" I see a male figure in the far distance. I loose my footing and fall face first onto the floor. The last thing I see is the brown haired male running towards me. Is this is it?