how do i know if i love you?

24장

I lie down on the couch waiting for the others to decide on what we are eating for dinner. Jimin comes and sit on the floor besides me as I am taking up the whole couch.

"Today was eventful." Jimin says looking of at the others. "It's kind of my fault that we got lost. I'm sorry."

"Jimin, It's ok" I say looking at Yoongi talking to Taehyung and Jungkook.

"Congrats on hitting 50 million views in 24 hours of your music video MM by the way." He says.

"Thank you." I say looking over at the girls. I hear the door click open. Midnight Girl's manager walks in and stands in front of us.

"Have you guys chosen what you guys want for dinner?" He asks, he looks at me and grabs something out of his bag, it's my phone. "You broke your phone, so I went and got it fixed."

He passes me my phone and I unlock it. Notifications fill the screen, some about my new ep, others not so nice. I look up at the others, catching eyes eith Yoongi. I turn it off and place it down beside me. "Thanks.." I say.

"Anyways, what have you guys decided on?" The manager asks. The others look at each other and then at the manger.

"Pizza!" They say and the manager grabs his phone to order the pizza.

I stand up and grab my phone. I quietly leave the room and make my way to the bedroom I share with Eun.

I open my phone and click onto the messages, I've received a message from the unknown number.

I open the message and read it out loud, "You've always been useless. When I get to you I will end your misery for you."

I shake my head and turn my phone off, I take a deep breath in and place a my hand on my chest. "Don't let them get to you." I mutter to myself. "You're perfect the way you are."

I open my phone and press onto that contact again. I black list the number and erase it of my phone.

I lean against the wall and and let my hand full down next to me. I need learn to love myself. I sit down on the floor and bring my knees to my chest.

I stand up and walk into the bathroom connected to our room. I look at myself in the mirror. I point my finger at my reflection.

"You're perfect, let no one tell you different." I say to my reflection in the mirror. But your not. I put my hand down and sigh, I'm not feeling any different yet.

I place my phone on the counter and walk out of the bathroom and into the living room with everyone. I look at my group members, these people are my family.

I sit down on the couch next to Jisu and rest my head on her shoulder. She pats my head and grabs her phone and shows me how many views that we got in 24 hrs.

I look up at her and and then at my phone, Jimin said 50 million views not this many. I grab the phone and look at it closely.

"How? How did we get 90 million views in 24hrs?" I pass back her phone in disbelief. "No way! That's awesome!"

I quickly hop up off the couch and open the fridge, I grab out a few bottles of beer. I rush back to the living room.

"Let's celebrate!" I say holding up the beers in my hand. Just as I say this our manager walks in with 6 boxs of pizza. I place down the beers and run to grab the pizzas and garlic bread and place them down on the small coffee table by the lounge.

We open up the pizza and crack open a couple beers. "For getting 90 million views in 24hrs!" Jisu says holding up her beer bottle.

I lift my beer and cheer. "Woo! 90 million views!" and to learning to love myself! We cheer and eat the pizza.

I notice Eun looking at Jimin. I elbow Jimin, he looks at me. I eye over at Eun. "Tell her." I whisper. He looks at me his with a shocked expression on his face.

"Now?" He whispers back. I feel Eun's gaze on the two of us. I nod and slightly push him, I give him a thumbs up.

I grab another slice of pizza. I watch as Jimin nervously talks to Eun. He drags her away, he looks back at me and I give him a thumbs up.

I look at Yoongi, he looks at me with a confused look on his face. "He's going to tell her." I say barely making any sound. He seems to understand what I said as he nods and smiles at me.

I grab a piece a garlic bread and eat it. This has been one of the best days of my life.

When Eun comes back her face is bright red. Her lips slightly swollen. I smile to myself. I lie back on the couch, I rest my head on Jisu and put my feet on the couch as Jimin was yet to come back.

I place a hand on my stomach. "This is the most food I've ever eaten in one sitting." I say looking up looking towards the others.

I watch Yoongi talking to Jin and drinking their beers. Jimin goes and sits down next to Yoongi. I feel butterflies in my stomach as I watch him. I study his facial features, his smile, eyes. He looks perfect. Just like what I need to see in the mirror when I look at my reflection. Yoongi starts to excuse himself and stands up. 

"Yo, Yoongi hyung." Jimin says. "I'm going to use your bathroom." Jimin stands up and walks towards Yoongi's bedroom.

"Wait- ugh but I have to use the bathroom now." Yoongi says looking in the path of were Jimin just went.

"You can use mine and Chae's." Eun says laughing slightly. Yoongi thanks Eun before running off to the bathroom.

I laugh slightly before realisation hits me. I left my phone in that bathroom, I haven't gotten a text from my father today yet, what if he sees it? My father will kill me for sure.

I look out over to the balcony and the lights of the city. He won't see it, will he?