how do i know if i love you?

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I drag my suit cases out of my room. I didn't come out of my room till BTS left. The girls were worried about me be I said I was fine.

I put my suit cases into the back of the black van, we normally drive in. BTS are waiting for us at the airport.

"So, who is sitting next to who?" I ask once everyone is in the car.

"Jin, me and RM are sitting together in row 1," Jisu starts, "Jhope, Mihyeon and Jungkook in row 2, Jimin, Eun and Taehyung in row 3 and You and Suga in back row."

"I-I'm sitting next to Y-Yoongi?" I ask sitting back into my seat in the back behind Jisu, next to EunChae.

"Yes." MiHyeon says leaning on Jisu's shoulder.

I'm sitting next to Yoongi? I feel my heart start to speed up, heat rushes to my face.

"Chae are you ok?" Eun asks quietly, "Your face is so red right now."

I cover my face with my hands and just rest on her.

"I-" I try to say what's wrong but it just wont come out. "Eun, I don't know what to do.."

She pulls me closer to her, "It's going to be alright, are you sick? Do you need to take anything?" I nod, sitting up and grabbing a tablet from my personal bag. I quickly take the tablet and sit back down.

The trip to the airport is rather quiet after that point seeming that it is night time.

We pull up at the airport, it maybe late night but there are lot's of fans at the entrance when we get out of the van.

I wave to them and they scream loudly. We are rushed into the airport by staff members.

We meet BTS at the gate to the plane which is not here yet. Namjoon quickly comes up to me.

"Are you okay?" He asks hugging me, "You didn't say goodbye to us. You didn't do anything bad did you?"

"Yes, I'm okay, I didn't do anything bad." I say, looking over at Yoongi standing there talking to Jhope.

"Chulmoo, said that you li-" I quickly put my finger to his mouth to stop him from speaking. "Oh.. You do!"

My face burns with heat and I cover it with my hands. "Chulmoo thinks you should date him. It would be cute. He also thinks your children will be adorable." I feel my body burn with heat and lust.

I loose my footing a bit and stumble into NamJoon's arms, bring attention to us. NamJoon looses his gripping and I stumble to the floor. My vision kept blurring in and out.

The others rush over to me and help me stand. Yoongi wraps his arm around one side of me and Taehyung the other, helping me to stand properly.

"Chae are you ok?" I hear Yoongi say softly. I nod while looking at him. My emotions are all over the place.

It wasn't long afther that the plane comes and we get on. I take my seat next to Yoongi. He puts his headphones in and we wait for the plane to take off. I watch his face for a while longer before putting my headphones in and listen to my music.

"Chaerin." I hear a voice say. I'm in my old house the hallways long and haunting. The voice echoing around the large house.

I turn around to see my father slam through the door, he pulls at my hair. "You worthless bit of trash." he says pushing me into the wall. He smashes his beer bottle on the ground. He pushes me to the ground the glass cutting at my hands.

"Clean this shit up would you?" he says kicking my back so that I fall over.

"Dad please no!" I scream as he kicks me once more.

"You think that I am your father? You are a piece of trash." He screams pulling my up by my hair.

"Stop!" I scream, he picks up a shard of glass and cuts my cheek. He pulls harder at my long hair and hacks it off. He chucks me harder to the ground.

"Clean this up now!" He screams, pushing my body into the glass on the floor, my blood spread out on the floor, pain spreads around my body. I let out a scream as the pain gets worse.

I jump and open my eyes awaking Yoongi besides me. Sweat pouring down my face, he looks at me in distress. I quickly get up tears running down my face. I stumble trying to get to the bathroom.

Yoongi gets up and stops me from running away, we fall onto the ground.

"Please don't run away from me." He says placing his hand on my face making me look at him. "It's going to be ok, you're safe here."

I clutch onto him. My body melts in his arms. I look at his face in the dark, everyone must be asleep right now.

"I'm not going to run away." I whisper. I hold onto him tighter. He makes me look at him in the face. He looks at me with lust in his eyes. I lean in towards him, our lips touching.

I hold onto him tighter as we kiss. He runs his arms down my back, our lips moving in sync. I grab a hold of his shirt as he kisses me harder and more stronger.

We brake apart and I look at his face. New emotions I've never felt arise in me. I feel butterflies in my stomach as I look at him.

"CM? Yoongi?" I hear a voice from behind us. "What are you doing down there?"

I turn around to see Jimin with his phone light pointed at us. We quickly get off each other.

"How long were you standing there?" Yoongi asks.

"Oh I just got up and I saw you too on the floor just looking at each other." Jimin says. "I need to use the bathroom, so yeah."

He walks pass us and we look at each other. I let out a little giggle. Yoongi grabs my hand and we walk back to our seats.

As we sit down he puts his hands around me. "I'm here, you will be fine. I promise." He says stroking my hair as I rest my head on his body falling into sleep.