how do i know if i love you?

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It wasn't long before we arrived in Japan, the rest of BTS had gotten there earlier today. "Chae do you have any gummies left?" Eunchae says as we leave the airport and make our way to the van. I look at her eyes widening, did she want to have some for herself as well?

"No sorry, half of them were not really edible after I split them all. Yoongi and I devoured the rest, sorry." I say and she places her arm on my shoulder.

"I'm sure you did. You even made out at some point. I won't judge, I make with Jimin a lot but we need to talk about that tattoo under your breast." Eunchae whispers and I quickly move my arm to cover the tattoo.

"Don't say anything about it!" I whisper back and she smiles at me. Something tells me she might. 

"No, don't worry about it Chae." Eunchae exclaims. "I think you should also worry that now you are taking a break from some pills that you can get pregnant now."

I look at Eunchae wide eyed. "What makes you think I will get pregnant?" I ask and she looks at me smiling.

"I know you have a very intimate relationship with Yoongi." Eunchae says and I gasp. She smiles at me, "Don't worry, I won't tell."

"Do you have an intimate relationship with Jimin?" I ask as we hop into the car. She turns to me wide eyed. "Oh my- you do!" I exclaim.

"Who has an intimate with who?" Mihyeon exclaims leaning over the seat. "Eun are you dating someone? I know Chaerin's going out with Yoongi, but you?"

I look over at Eunchae my eyes widening, I didn't know that Mihyeon didn't know. Everyone now knows me and Yoongi are a thing but I didn't realise about Eunchae and Jimin.

"Chae has a very intimate relationship with Yoongi." Eun exclaims and I hit her softly. I look over at her and shake my head.

"What? You and Yoongi did umm.. it?" Mihyeon says and I look up at Eunchae and then down at Mihyeon, what do I say.

"Yes she did! I mean I don't really know for sure but I bet they did!" Eunchae exclaims. She starting to annoy me. "They have been seeing each other for quite some time too! They love each other!"

"Don't say anything." I growl, but she continues to tease me, each time pissing me off further. Just like a ticking time bomb.

"Yeah and You and Jimin are also fucking, it's not just me!" I exclaim slightly pissed, I mean I swore so very angry. Mihyeon looks at me wided eyed, what I said had also gotten Jisu's attention. "Umm forget I said anything."

"Oh my God. Is this true??" Jisu says looking at me then at Eunchae. I quickly sit myself down and ignore there questions, Eunchae does the same. The manager gets into the van and drives us away.

The ride is very awkward after that point. "Umm, Eun I'm really sorry about what I said earlier." I say after a while. "I didn't mean to say that about you and Jimin."

"No, it's alright." Eunchae says after a while. "They were going to find out at some point, you only spoke the truth." She looks at me and smiles.

"What you spoke was also the truth. I guess I just wasn't comfortable talking about that topic with people other than Yoongi." I say looking up at her, a tear roles down her face. "I'm so sorry. Every word you said was true and I lost my cool. I'm so so sorry."

"Chae, I forgive you." Eunchae says and I quickly hug her. She pulls away and looks at me in the eyes. "So about that tattoo, since when did you get it? How come I don't know about?"

"Yeah about that... I had connections so I got it when I was 15." I say lifting up my shirt to show my tattoo. It's in chinese, it says '象与翼的一只老虎' which is like a tiger with wings. It is supposed to be inspirational, it's a chinese proverb.