Let Me (TAEGI)

Not my friend.

            ~Yoongi's P.O.V~

     I'm still sleepy as I drive home when I walk inside I follow Taehyung into his room where he lays down "you seem annoyed" he tells me how can I not? I move the pillows and lay on them Tae is lower in the bed so he looks up at me "why are you annoyed?" he asks me, we have a habit of laying down when we get mad, sometimes we hold hands or cuddle that way things don't get out of hand and we remain calm for the most part. 

   When I get angry I snap, and I don't want to snap at Tae. I'm annoyed yes but when I really think about it it's a stupid reason to be annoyed " because you were flirting with Jin" I say he gets closer and wraps his arm around my waist when he does that it means I made him mad or I said something he doesn't like "I wasn't flirting with Jin Hyung" he does know I was there right?

    "Tae I was there, you were flirting" he stays quiet for a moment which makes me anxious "why do you think I was flirting?" he asks "because you were giggling and laughing and smiling at him when he flirted with you"I hear him chuckle underneath me so I untangle myself from him, does he think it's a fucking joke? he brings me closer and wraps his arm around me again.

      "babe, I was laughing because it was so cheesy and cute" he does calling Jin cute helps the situation? "you think he is cute?" I have the right to be jealous right? I mean Taehyung is going to be my husband I don't want him to melt for someone else "yeah, and it was weird because I only see him as an older brother so it was funny to see him try to flirt with me" it does make sense Jin is his only other friend apart from Jimin "How do you see the rest of them?" I ask.

     "I see Jimin Hyung as a brother, I see Jungkook like a bratty sibling, I see Hoseok Hyung as a brother too and noona is like a sister to me" then where does that put me? I've never asked, "how do you see me?" I ask him, he stays quiet for about a minute or two "do you see me as I brother?" I ask "no, I would not kiss my brother I wouldn't kiss the Hyungs or Jungkook, so definitely not my brother" if I'm not a brother then am I just a normal friend "so you love me less then you love them?" I ask I wouldn't care usually but It's Taehyung a part of me would break.

    "No, I see you as a boyfriend who I know will break up with me" I'm so confused right not "so you do love me less than the rest of them?" I feel him take a deep breath within my hold "no, you're like my boyfriend someone I can be attracted to, someone I trust and hold dear to me but I know I'll have to let go of you someday, that's what it feels like but your not below them, your above them" I'm glad I'm above the rest of them because they don't even know Tae as I do.

    "I wouldn't break up with you,"  when he doesn't say anything I say "the thought of losing you one day keeps getting harder and harder" he doesn't say anything but he moves closer to me and holds me tighter. Why is this man making me soft? sometimes I don't even recognize myself. Especially when I smile over the smallest things, and I hate with a passion when Taehyung goes to dates, every time I come back from mine I feel empty and want to come to Taehyung's room and let him hold me but I wasn't like that before. 

  "I don't want us to go on dates anymore," I say hoping that it doesn't make Taehyung feel conflicted but I smile when I wear him say "Me neither".