josh sat on the couch, a towel around his waist and his brown curls sticking to his forehead. jenna took a seat next to him.
she made sure to grab the piece of paper that had been left with her when memmie left.
"hey, josh?" jenna said with a sigh. josh looked up from his lap.
"i'm sorry, jenna." he said, running his hands through his curly hair.
jenna sat silently for a little, considering if she should even hand this to josh. she groaned handing it to him.
"memmie left this. she told me to give it to you if things ever went downhill." jenna sympathized while her blue eyes saddened.
"thanks, jenna." he smiled sadly.
"i'll leave you alone." jenna said sadly before walking back to her bedroom.
josh opened the envelope.
"dear josh,
you're being a headass already? you know i'm kidding. i told jenna to give you this if you start punching walls and yelling at your friends, or if you get sad.
i love you, josh. i've loved you for three years and i'm never going to stop loving you. even though i'm gone, know that this isn't the end of us. i promise i'm not working with cartels or running cocaine on the border, i'm gonna come back the way i should have gotten here in the first place.
and i'm sorry for going off on you. i was stressed about leaving, i didn't want to leave you. i think making you hate me would make it easier to let go. joshua william dun i love you know and i will love you till the end of time. you're my life line, my sunshine, my everything.
promise to love me and i can guarantee i'll be loving you. and please, punch debby ryan as a go away gift for me. i hate that bitch lol.
i'm sorry this note is going off it's rails, it's just so hard to go away. i don't wanna leave. i love you baby, i can't tell you how much i love you.
tell your mom and dad i love them and abby, and ashley, even jordan. i know they're probably upset that i hurt you but there was nothing i could have done.
josh, we were to young to get married. and when abuela finds out i'm marrying a white boy she wouldn't be happy, but don't worry she likes you. she always tells me how great your manners are and it makes her laugh that you love her food more than you love me.
goddamnit, i should really get to the point here. joshua, you are the love of my life and i don't want you to forget that. do what makes you happy. whatever girl, boy, whatever the hell it is, i just want you to be happy. i'm gonna be back i promise. te amo mucho, corazón.
with all of my love,
memmie mendez <3"
josh's eyebrows furrowed while his eyes teared up. his girl was coming back and that's all he cared about.
