200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 2: Page 2

Andy's pov

As we got to the hospital, I had kinda calmed down but I was still letting the odd tear out. Jack opened the door for me and I stepped out, Jack and Brook both seemed nice, They also looked to be about in their 20s. They led me to a big room, it had a table and some couches also a water machine with paper cups. 

"Do you want to stay here or go to your room now Andy?" Brooklyn said. "Room," I said quietly. He nodded and took me to a long hall with so many doors. Once I got to mine it was room number 301. He opened the door and I walked inside. It had my name above my bed, I had a single bed with white bedsheets and it had a window so I could look out at the pretty garden, the walls were blue and there was a shelf for clothes.

"How did you know what my name was?" I asked still talking quietly. "Your mum rang up and she answered some things about you" Brooklyn answered and I nodded. We sat down and he started to talk.

"So the morning tomorrow will go like, wake up at 7, then you will have a weigh-in and we will take your vitals, then have a shower and do everything you need or want do to before 8:30 am because then all of the boys and girls around your age will come out to the kitchen and we will eat breakfast together, then you may do whatever until lunch and same will dinner," Brook said. "Do you have to eat?" Did I ask? "Yes Andy, everyone eats the same amount of food every day and no using the bathroom until an hour after you have eaten" he replied, this was hell.

After Brooklyn left, I remembered the thing mum put in my pocket. I pulled it out, it was a note, well 2 notes.

Dear Andy, this is from mum, I didn't want to send you there but I knew you needed help and you were in denial so we had to get you to come help. Ryan was very upset last night and agreed so we both rang in. Please try your hardest and we will come to see you every day okay. Mumma loves you so very much and please try super hard to get better. Love mum xx

This made me start to cry... then I read Ryes.

Hey Fovvs, I made that nickname for you because I thought It was cute. Please don't be mad at me or your mum, we just wanted you to get help so we can spend lots of years together and make so many amazing memories. I want you to get better because you are so special to me and Lesley so please try to get better, I want you home. Love you lots, Rye xx 

I miss them so much. I looked at the time and it was only 10:37 am. I wanted to go home but I knew they wouldn't let me. I just sat on my bed, staring at the wall for ages. Soon Jack came in and told me it was lunchtime. I didn't have a choice so I walked with him out to the dining room. There were lots of boys my age at the table, but they were all eating.

I sat down not looking at anyone, Jack and Brooklyn also sat at this table to make sure we ate I guess. I looked at lunch and I was terrified. There was a sandwich, some apples and some chips (Crisps). It was at least 600 calories. I didn't want any of it. "You have to eat it, Andy," Brooklyn said to me. I looked around and some of the guys had tubes in their noses and some were so skinny. I should not be here.

"Come on, just a few bites," Jack said as he watched me. I shook my head and looked down, tears started to fall out of my eyes. "Come on Andy, you can do it" I heard but I didn't care who said it, because I can't do it, I cant get more fat. "I can't" I sobbed. Soon all the boys are done, apart from me. I and Brook were the only people at the table now.

"Andy, what is scaring you so much?" He asked and I shrugged, "I don't know" I replied and was still looking down. "Well, we are going to have to get the calories in you to come how," He said and took my plate into the kitchen. He was doing something in there so I took this as a chance to try to get out. I tried to run to the door but you needed a code to open it. "Andy please come back," Brook said, I turned around and saw him giving me an understanding look. I shook my head and sat on the ground in the corner of the room.

I heard Brook sigh and slowly walk over to me and sit next to me. I didn't dare look at him. "I was in your place when I was your age," He said, "I was terrified to eat and get fat because I wanted to be like the other boys with a six-pack and stuff, but you know what" He stopped, "What," I asked. "It doesn't matter if you have a six-pack, it doesn't matter how you look, just as long as you love yourself, and you have others that love you for you, that's all that matters," Brook said I looked at him. I did say anything but he just pulled me into a hug.

"How come when I look into the mirror all I see is fat," I asked. He sighs, thinking about it for a minute. "Because everyone always sees themself as something they aren't, you always think you're not as good as others because it's your vision of yourself. You need to open your eyes and see what you're doing to yourself is flipping bad, your skinny Andy, like bones showing skinny" He said and I took a long breath.

"Who was that boy at your house?" He asked. "Um, just a boy who lives next door," I said as I thought about him. "Do you think he's fat?" Brook asked, "What, no he's fit," I said, then realizing what I said, Brook smiled at me and gave me that look. "You like him" Brook laughed. I went red. "What no, I don't like him, I mean as a friend yeah but nothing else" I replied. "Well you do know he is bigger than you like he's got muscle and you cant see his bones," Brook said, it made me think. Was he bigger than me?

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How do you think Andy is going to cope? I think he will be okay but there might be a few things in here that a few of you might not agree with but I have been through this myself, so Some things in the next few pages will upset some of you and that's fine, just please don't read if you get upset but these things.

See ya on the flip side <3

Greer xx