200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 2: Page 5

(Trigger warning!!! If you are in any way triggered by a feeding tube being placed or being held down and having things done (He's getting a tube) Feel free to go to the next chapter)

Andy's pov

(This is back when he passed out with Rye) 

I woke up with my mum pulling Rye away, I wanted my mum. "Mummy" I whimpered out and she turned to me. She came over to me and held my hand. "Hey baby," She said and stroked my hair. I looked at Rye, he looked like he was crying and terrified. Soon I saw Brook pick me up and start to carry me down the hall, I wanted my mum so badly, I just wanted her to come and take me home.

I was carried into a room, I was put on a bed and my arms and legs were held by nurses and really strong men. I then saw Brook come with a tube in his hands. "No don't touch me!" I yelled, trying to get free but many people were holding me down. "Andy your dying, you need to have this" Brook said and came close to me, more people came over and held my head still.

"I'm sorry," Brook said before washing the tube and then starting to place it, as soon as he pushed it in a little I started to scream because it hurt so badly. "Stop it hurts!!" I cried but he didn't stop, I tried to get free but I couldn't because of the stupid fucking people holding me. He pushed it even further and I screamed so loudly because it hurt even more. I started to feel like I'm gonna puke because the pain was so bad.

"Brook I'm gonna throw up," I said as I was sobbing. "It's only because it hurts Andy just hold on" He replied, I started shaking and crying from the pain. I felt so dizzy and the pain was all I was thinking about, I tried to stay awake but I just couldn't. Everything went black.

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"Come on Andy, wake up" I heard, I slowly opened my eyes but had to shut them only seconds later because it was so bright. I groaned because the pain in my nose was so bad. I slowly opened my eyes a few seconds later, my eyes then didn't mind the light. I looked around and saw, I was in a room that I have never seen before. I was connected through an IV and the thing in my nose was taped on my face and into a thing next to my bed.

"Hey Andy, how are you feeling," Brook asked next to me. I just looked at him, he is the one who did this, he put me through this pain and he wants me to get even more fat so I get bullied even more. "Fuck off" I snarled and he smirked. "I get that a lot after I do this" He laughed and I got so mad. "Go away Brooklyn I don't want to see you ever again, you did this to me and I hate you, Rye will beat you up when he finds out you did this to me," I said as I sat up in bed.

"Your mum gave us permission to do this, you will die if you don't eat Andrew, so stop this because you're hurting your family," He said and walked out of the room. I was hurting my family? What Family. But my mum gave him permission for this, what the fuck, why would she do that to me. I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I thought about my mum. She did this.

Then a nurse came into my room, she smiled at me and walked over to a machine. She connected a bag that looked like soup to my tube machine and then left, it was going into me and it was 1000 calories on the fucking bag. "No, get me out of here now!" I yelled and tried to get up but a nurse came in and started trying to calm me down.

I soon calmed down and just excepted the fact that I was forever gonna be fat. I wanted Rye to be here but he was probably with his girlfriend, forgetting about me because I mean nothing to Everybody. I just cried into my jacket. My mother gave Brooklyn a bag of my things when she came so I had some clothes and she also got me my phone, And I also found a jacket that wasn't mine, so I put it on earlier, it must have been Rye's because it smelled like him, he smelled so good.

Soon Jack came in and sat next to me, he didn't help to put this thing in me so liked him now. "How do you feel Andy," He asked and I shrugged, I felt numb. "I don't know, I just feel like everyone wants me to go get fat and get even more bullied," I said as a tear fell out of my eyes. "Tomorrow you will be able to walk around and maybe make some new friends" He smiled. "Nobody wants to be friends with the fat kid," I said and looked away from Jack and out the window wishing, I could be free.

"Andy the reason you in here is that your sick, you are not fat. Is Rye fat?" He asked and I looked at him, "No" I replied and he nodded. "He is heavier than you Andy" He replied and I looked at him confused, "How, I'm way fatter than him," I said and he took a deep breath because I was probably annoying him. "You cant see his bones, Andy, we can see all of yours," He said, I looked at my arms.

"Here look at this" Jack said and handed me a picture, I looked at it and saw a lot of people, it was at my last birthday which was about 1 month ago as it was now March, I turned 17. I looked at the people and it was all my family as I didn't have friends, I saw my mum, my uncle and aunt, my grandparents and my cousins, I also saw this skinny looking boy. "Who is that?" I asked and pointed at the person I saw. He looked like I had seen him before but he looked sick.

"Andy that's you," Jack said, I laughed. "That's not me, he looks way too skinny," I said and then I looked at Jack, he had a sad look on his face. He then gave me a mirror. I looked at the picture then at myself. He was right, it was me. I couldn't stop the tears from falling, I was sick. "How am I seeing myself like this now," I asked wiping away my tears. "Because Andy, we always look at ourselves fatter and more different looking than others, we always think we look worse than others and that is just what we do" He replied. 

I was now sobbing, I thought I was fat and ugly. But now I'm gross and you can see all my bones. I look awful. Jack pulled me into a much-needed hug. "I'm so sorry" I whispered and cuddled more into him. "It's okay Andy, it's why I'm here, to help you," He said, I love his Irish accent. I felt so tired and it was almost dinner. "What do I do for dinner?" I asked, "Oh don't worry, Milly the nurse will come in and put some feed through your tube, also if you get a little bigger and you get more healthy we will be able to take out your tube" He smiled, I nodded and Jack left the room. 

Soon Milly came in and connected my feed and then left me to do whatever on my phone. I was scrolling through my contacts and saw Rye's number, he must have put it in when I felt. I clicked on it and started to massage him.

Andy
Hey

Rye
Hey Fovvs, how are you doing x

Andy
I'm trying hard and Jack helped me to see how sick I was

Rye
Omg I'm so happy, when you get better we will hang out every single day

Andy
I would love that x

Rye 

Good because I would hang out with you whether you liked it or not

Andy

I have to go because I'm tired so see you tomorrow if you wanna come over?

Rye

I'll come as much as I can because I wanna help, go to sleep and see ya tomorrow x

Andy

Bye Rye x

Rye

Bye Fovvs x

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I have finished my feed, I am still absolutely terrified of putting on weight but I'm doing it for my mother and Rye, I also need to say sorry to Brook tomorrow because I had no right to yell at him. He was right after all.

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I didn't know what to do so I made Andy realize what he was doing to his body, this is what happened to me so I just used myself as inspiration.

See ya on the flip side <3

Greer xx