200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 5: Page 2

Rye's pov

I couldn't do it, I pushed him off and ran. I didn't want to leave him but he couldn't know, he just couldn't. I have had a boyfriend before.... a long time ago and his name was Ben, I loved him so much and I thought he loved me to but I guess not. He abused me and made me feel worthless. He used me as a sex toy and I was just there to pleasure him when he wanted me and other wise I always had to clean the house, I was never aloud to talk to other people and it just was the worst time of my life but he told me that I was doing so good all the time.

I got away from him, I ran and ran all the way back home and I never saw him again, apparently he went to jail for many things and so he might look for me when he gets out and I'm so scared. I ran and ran, I had no clue where I was going. I was scared that if I let Andy know then he will think I'm weak, like Ben made me feel.

I got home and walked in, ignoring all the questions and walked to my bedroom. I lay down and cried because I was weak, my parents know about Ben and when he did to me. I heard a knock on the door and turned around to see Sammie standing there. I smiled and wiped my face and pulled him into a hug on my bed.

"Are you okay Rye-Pie?" he asked knowing I hate that name. I smiled and nodded. "Yeah, I'm okay" I replied and kissed his head. He giggled and kissed my head. I lay down with him and we fell asleep together even though it was only 1pm.

I woke up by Sammie jumping on me. "Rye wake up, you have been asleep for ever" He whined. I groaned and turned over as Sammie huffed. I soon heard another patter of feet come into the room and then had 2 little monkeys jumping on me. "Get off" I groaned and pushed them off but they had a different idea. They both grabbed my hand and pulled until I fell off the bed with a thud. I moaned in pain and the twins laughed and ran downstairs.

I looked over to the clock and it said 5pm, Woah I did sleep for ages. I got off the floor and walked down stairs to see my mum serving dinner and Sammie and Shaun running around outside. "Ryan Come here now" I heard mum yell as she saw me. Damn I'm in trouble, she called me by my whole name. I sigh and walked into the kitchen.

"Why did you run off from Andy, he's so upset and now 100% refusing to eat, what happened?" She asked, I didn't know I would hurt him that badly. "Its just...He was on me and we were kissing and I got flash backs and I couldn't handle it mummy" I said breaking down. I heard her gasp and rush over to me. "I'm sorry Rye, I didn't know" She told me, I nodded and hugged her. We sat down and ate dinner as a family.

After dinner I decided just to watch a movie, it was the kissing booth. Me and Andy were supposed to watch it together but.. he's not here right now so I guess I watching it alone. It was okay I guess, I mean it would be better if Andy was here. Now I feel really sad for some reason, I could have just told Andy that I didn't want it, but I ran away like somebody who is weak.

I just decided I would call him. It rang for a minute then he picked up.

A- What

R- Hey baby

A- Don't hey baby me

R- Oh.. Sorry

A- What do you want Ryan

R- I just thought I would talk to you for a bit

A- Are you going to school tomorrow

R- Um I think so

A- Good so I don't have to see you

That hurt

R- Oh... so you don't want to see me

A- No I don't, you just ran off and didn't even say goodbye so no I don't want to see you

R- Andy please I have a good reason

A- I don't want your excuses, you could of just said you didn't want it, goodbye

He hung up.

I cried and cried until I couldn't cry anymore. I even cried myself to sleep.

I woke up the next morning, it was 8am. Shit I groaned and shot out of bed and downstairs not eating any breakfast and I just ran to school. I even forgot all my books and everything. Once I got there I was just in time for class. I sat down and saw Harvey sitting at a desk near the back. He only stays there in the weekend so he's at school for the week.

He saw me and smiled. I walked over to him and slumped down into the seat next to him. "I saw Andy" Harvey said and I jolted up. "Is he okay?" I asked really worried about him. "Well.. no he's not okay" Harvey said and I looked out the window. I didn't mean to hurt him, I was just getting flash backs to when Ben would be on top of me and held me down so I couldn't run anywhere.

"He really thinks you don't want him, or you don't wanna have sex with him because he's fat so now he wont eat" Harvey told me. I felt so bad. "I do want him, but I just... I cant" I told him. "Why not?" He asked, I didn't know what to say. "Because.. please don't tell anyone" He nodded.

"I had a boyfriend a few years ago, I was almost 15 at the time and he was 18, he made me do things I didn't want to do and he always held me down so I couldn't run, I had a flash back when Andy was on top of me and that's why I ran" I said trying to hold back the tears. "Oh man, that sucks" He said and rubbed my shoulder. "Yeah and I didn't mean to hurt Andy, I was just scared" I said breaking down in the middle off class, everyone was looking at me.

Harvey took me out of the class into the hall to breath. After I had calmed down we went back in and carried on with the day.

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